Post by Jazmyn Rain on Jun 24, 2018 21:40:52 GMT -5
“Recovery”
Date: June 24, 2018
On the afternoon of Dissension, NGW Five Lakes Champion Jazmyn Rain is sitting down on a bench with her championship on her lap. Her fashion… a short, knee-high dress with matching high heels… may indicate that she’s in a bright mood, but the fact of the matter is, the Five Lakes Champion is still hurting some from two weeks ago. She takes a bit of a look at the championship as her demeanor appears to be in-between her usual bubbliness and the pain on all fronts that she’s dealt with the last two weeks before taking a deep breath. Composing herself as the Five Lakes Champion that she is, she slings the title over her shoulder, thinks about what she has to say as the hours toward her match against Alex Jones comes up, and then she begins to speak her mind.
Jazmyn Rain: Two weeks ago… I had an opportunity to really make a statement going up against the NGW Champion! In my first match after the end of the Guardians-Destroyers war… I had the opportunity of a lifetime right in front of me! If there was a match that I had to win in order to really prove myself and make my mark here in New Generation Wrestling, it was that match right there. And you know… I gave it everything I had in me. I think I even stretched myself beyond my limits. I even had the Rain Splash hit and everything! I did everything that I could possibly do to win that match… and then… I didn’t…
Jazmyn spoke the words “I didn’t” in a softer tone, indicating that the outcome of her match against the NGW Champion is something that she hasn’t quite gotten over it.
Jazmyn Rain: And if that wasn’t enough… I tapped out…
Jazmyn pauses, taking the title off of her shoulder and setting it to her right side. She hangs her head some and quickly runs her fingers through her hair as an indicator that she’s still bothered by it a bit. Her pride and her spirit definitely took a hit with losing the match the way that she did and the Five Lakes Champion certainly isn’t hiding it. She looks back up at the camera, leaving the title at her side, as she continues.
Jazmyn Rain: I’m going to be honest and real here… that was my harshest, most cruel loss ever since I lost the GCW Global Championship match the first time around more than two years ago and I’m not saying that to give the son of a bitch any power over me because he DOESN’T and he NEVER WILL, I’m saying that because I want to convey how much that match broke my heart. I wanted it SO bad! I knew deep down that if I had won, I was FINALLY going to really prove myself! I can’t say I’ve had the greatest run as Five Lakes Champion so far, to be honest. In fact, I haven’t had that many chances to shine as the champion. Part of that has to do with the Guardians-Destroyers war, yeah… but the last two singles matches I’ve had going into tonight? I’ve lost them both! I know that the last one was against the NGW Champion and the one before, against Jaxon Richards, was because of the Destroyers… but that’s not going to change the outcome! That’s not going to erase the fact that I’ve lost more matches AS Five Lakes Champion than I’ve won and honestly? It’s HARD when you have a responsibility as a champion and you feel like you’re not doing what you’ve got to do! I know that defending a title is harder than winning one… but I can’t help it! My back is still hurting some… and hey, it’s great that I retained my Global title in GCW last weekend, that will help…
But that was an opportunity lost… and I can’t do anything to change that. If that wasn’t enough? I lost a friendship of 16 years because my so-called friend slash agent was using me to steal money from me and my charitable causes. And through it all, I realized that I’m no angel… I’m human! I’m fine with that… I know deep down that everything I’ve done in my career was because I went out and won those matches and championships… not some “guardian angel” persona. Needless to say, I’ve been dealing with a roller coaster, and I’ve been dealing with it pretty darn fast and I’m still hurting… not nearly as much… but I am and you can trust me when I say that this isn’t going to present my opponent Alex Jones any sort of significant advantage because as much as I’ve hurt from that match???
Jazmyn glares at the camera with a look of determination in her eyes as she picks up her championship and once again slings it over her shoulder.
Jazmyn Rain: I’ve hurt WORSE! The first time I lost my Global title, it was the cruelest loss of my career, but I got through that! I got through my rock bottom from 5 to 6 years ago. I know I am going to get through the storm and Alex, as much as I respect you with all the championships that you’ve won and with the Global Cup that you’ve come away with recently, there’s no way I am going to allow you to deny me a victory! This match, Alex… tonight? For me it’s another opportunity to prove that I can hang with the NGW Championship contenders here in New Generation Wrestling and someday, perhaps… even be the ‘face of the franchise’ as I am on GCW’s Livewire show! I have been TOO humble for my own good, Alex. I’m not high in the clouds trying to be some “guardian angel”, I’m grounded and I’m getting down and dirty now!
There’s nothing that you can do to me to drive me to the point that I got to, two weeks ago… after that cruel, heartbreaking loss! I WANT to be the face of NGW someday because I know deep down in my heart, I have everything it takes to be that! I WANT to be NGW Champion with a greater passion and vigor than you could ever know and I’m frustrated as HELL going into this match not just because of two weeks ago, but because I want to prove to myself that Jazmyn Rain IS a future NGW Champion! I want to prove to myself that the NGW Five Lakes Champion isn’t some forgotten Guardian, or playing second fiddle to anyone because I hate to admit this Alex… and I know that this isn’t anyone else’s fault but… at times?
I did feel overshadowed.
Some of the shit that Shields said to me? You know “least important Guardian”? It got to me more than I let on.
And honestly, I don’t want Adrien Cochrane to win the NGW Championship to “avenge me”. I don’t NEED avenging. I want him to win it by beating the champion fair and square in the main event of WrestleForce. I don’t even want him THINKING about me because him winning that title isn’t going to heal the heartbreak I dealt with two weeks ago! Only I can do that!!! And that’s what I’m going to do tonight when I pull through, put in everything I’ve had to learn in the last two weeks, and find a way to beat a wrestler of your high-class caliber!
Jazmyn takes a pause, and a deep breath, setting down the title on her lap. She looks down at it, closing her eyes and keeping them closed being so deep in thought to allow the heartbreak she experienced from two weeks ago to flow through her veins. She re-opens them and looks forward, continuing her thoughts with the title on her lap.
Jazmyn Rain: My back hasn’t fully recovered… and my spirit is still bruised… and yet I’m still here with the hunger and the fire to rise above and beyond and to not be overshadowed by a damn thing or a damn person because I know that every ounce of my potential IS good enough to be on top one day. This isn’t going to be like it was in GCW before I won my first world title over there where I kept losing to world title contenders over and over again! It SUCKED going through that… and I’d rather be coked up and pull a Britney Spears again than to go through THAT again! THAT, Alex… is how passionate my competitive fire is!
It was nearly extinguished two weeks ago…
Now I’ve got it back!
I may be struggling now… but it won’t be for too long. I know that I’m growing… through trials… through tribulations…
Both of which you happen to be tonight!
But I will overcome, Alex… because that’s what I do!
Good luck tonight!
Jazmyn stands up and makes sure that she has her title in her hands. She basks in the glow of her fiery passion for a few moments before she decides to walk over to the camera to shut it off for the time being.
Date: June 24, 2018
On the afternoon of Dissension, NGW Five Lakes Champion Jazmyn Rain is sitting down on a bench with her championship on her lap. Her fashion… a short, knee-high dress with matching high heels… may indicate that she’s in a bright mood, but the fact of the matter is, the Five Lakes Champion is still hurting some from two weeks ago. She takes a bit of a look at the championship as her demeanor appears to be in-between her usual bubbliness and the pain on all fronts that she’s dealt with the last two weeks before taking a deep breath. Composing herself as the Five Lakes Champion that she is, she slings the title over her shoulder, thinks about what she has to say as the hours toward her match against Alex Jones comes up, and then she begins to speak her mind.
Jazmyn Rain: Two weeks ago… I had an opportunity to really make a statement going up against the NGW Champion! In my first match after the end of the Guardians-Destroyers war… I had the opportunity of a lifetime right in front of me! If there was a match that I had to win in order to really prove myself and make my mark here in New Generation Wrestling, it was that match right there. And you know… I gave it everything I had in me. I think I even stretched myself beyond my limits. I even had the Rain Splash hit and everything! I did everything that I could possibly do to win that match… and then… I didn’t…
Jazmyn spoke the words “I didn’t” in a softer tone, indicating that the outcome of her match against the NGW Champion is something that she hasn’t quite gotten over it.
Jazmyn Rain: And if that wasn’t enough… I tapped out…
Jazmyn pauses, taking the title off of her shoulder and setting it to her right side. She hangs her head some and quickly runs her fingers through her hair as an indicator that she’s still bothered by it a bit. Her pride and her spirit definitely took a hit with losing the match the way that she did and the Five Lakes Champion certainly isn’t hiding it. She looks back up at the camera, leaving the title at her side, as she continues.
Jazmyn Rain: I’m going to be honest and real here… that was my harshest, most cruel loss ever since I lost the GCW Global Championship match the first time around more than two years ago and I’m not saying that to give the son of a bitch any power over me because he DOESN’T and he NEVER WILL, I’m saying that because I want to convey how much that match broke my heart. I wanted it SO bad! I knew deep down that if I had won, I was FINALLY going to really prove myself! I can’t say I’ve had the greatest run as Five Lakes Champion so far, to be honest. In fact, I haven’t had that many chances to shine as the champion. Part of that has to do with the Guardians-Destroyers war, yeah… but the last two singles matches I’ve had going into tonight? I’ve lost them both! I know that the last one was against the NGW Champion and the one before, against Jaxon Richards, was because of the Destroyers… but that’s not going to change the outcome! That’s not going to erase the fact that I’ve lost more matches AS Five Lakes Champion than I’ve won and honestly? It’s HARD when you have a responsibility as a champion and you feel like you’re not doing what you’ve got to do! I know that defending a title is harder than winning one… but I can’t help it! My back is still hurting some… and hey, it’s great that I retained my Global title in GCW last weekend, that will help…
But that was an opportunity lost… and I can’t do anything to change that. If that wasn’t enough? I lost a friendship of 16 years because my so-called friend slash agent was using me to steal money from me and my charitable causes. And through it all, I realized that I’m no angel… I’m human! I’m fine with that… I know deep down that everything I’ve done in my career was because I went out and won those matches and championships… not some “guardian angel” persona. Needless to say, I’ve been dealing with a roller coaster, and I’ve been dealing with it pretty darn fast and I’m still hurting… not nearly as much… but I am and you can trust me when I say that this isn’t going to present my opponent Alex Jones any sort of significant advantage because as much as I’ve hurt from that match???
Jazmyn glares at the camera with a look of determination in her eyes as she picks up her championship and once again slings it over her shoulder.
Jazmyn Rain: I’ve hurt WORSE! The first time I lost my Global title, it was the cruelest loss of my career, but I got through that! I got through my rock bottom from 5 to 6 years ago. I know I am going to get through the storm and Alex, as much as I respect you with all the championships that you’ve won and with the Global Cup that you’ve come away with recently, there’s no way I am going to allow you to deny me a victory! This match, Alex… tonight? For me it’s another opportunity to prove that I can hang with the NGW Championship contenders here in New Generation Wrestling and someday, perhaps… even be the ‘face of the franchise’ as I am on GCW’s Livewire show! I have been TOO humble for my own good, Alex. I’m not high in the clouds trying to be some “guardian angel”, I’m grounded and I’m getting down and dirty now!
There’s nothing that you can do to me to drive me to the point that I got to, two weeks ago… after that cruel, heartbreaking loss! I WANT to be the face of NGW someday because I know deep down in my heart, I have everything it takes to be that! I WANT to be NGW Champion with a greater passion and vigor than you could ever know and I’m frustrated as HELL going into this match not just because of two weeks ago, but because I want to prove to myself that Jazmyn Rain IS a future NGW Champion! I want to prove to myself that the NGW Five Lakes Champion isn’t some forgotten Guardian, or playing second fiddle to anyone because I hate to admit this Alex… and I know that this isn’t anyone else’s fault but… at times?
I did feel overshadowed.
Some of the shit that Shields said to me? You know “least important Guardian”? It got to me more than I let on.
And honestly, I don’t want Adrien Cochrane to win the NGW Championship to “avenge me”. I don’t NEED avenging. I want him to win it by beating the champion fair and square in the main event of WrestleForce. I don’t even want him THINKING about me because him winning that title isn’t going to heal the heartbreak I dealt with two weeks ago! Only I can do that!!! And that’s what I’m going to do tonight when I pull through, put in everything I’ve had to learn in the last two weeks, and find a way to beat a wrestler of your high-class caliber!
Jazmyn takes a pause, and a deep breath, setting down the title on her lap. She looks down at it, closing her eyes and keeping them closed being so deep in thought to allow the heartbreak she experienced from two weeks ago to flow through her veins. She re-opens them and looks forward, continuing her thoughts with the title on her lap.
Jazmyn Rain: My back hasn’t fully recovered… and my spirit is still bruised… and yet I’m still here with the hunger and the fire to rise above and beyond and to not be overshadowed by a damn thing or a damn person because I know that every ounce of my potential IS good enough to be on top one day. This isn’t going to be like it was in GCW before I won my first world title over there where I kept losing to world title contenders over and over again! It SUCKED going through that… and I’d rather be coked up and pull a Britney Spears again than to go through THAT again! THAT, Alex… is how passionate my competitive fire is!
It was nearly extinguished two weeks ago…
Now I’ve got it back!
I may be struggling now… but it won’t be for too long. I know that I’m growing… through trials… through tribulations…
Both of which you happen to be tonight!
But I will overcome, Alex… because that’s what I do!
Good luck tonight!
Jazmyn stands up and makes sure that she has her title in her hands. She basks in the glow of her fiery passion for a few moments before she decides to walk over to the camera to shut it off for the time being.