Post by Alex Jones on Apr 25, 2018 21:07:19 GMT -5
I got an axe to grind
A crooked mind
You better watch your back
Starved like a vampire chasing a vein
Cruel disposition, sickness I crave
Attention, attention, welcome to the stage
Your new sacrifice, come sharpen your teeth
Prologue-What means most.
I love my kids. I really do. But for the longest time what I really thought mattered was that I was remembered by the general public. That when my career was said and done people would look back on it with fond memories and stand in awe of what I was able to accomplish. To be a legend. One of almost mythic proportions.
A name spoken of in every “best” conversation.
A name always in people’s “top tens”.
As a young man I strived to be that kind of person. I rushed through my career. I aligned myself with people I thought could get me ahead and befriended them only to turn my back on them and twist the knife to end it. I made bad decisions, horrible life choices all in the name of my career. I mean I let go of the woman who at the time was the great love of my life to chase one that I believed was my partner.
A woman who could boost my career. I didn’t go after Ana Valentine for love,I didn’t go after her because she had my heart and I just had to be with her. I went after Ana Valentine for one fucking reason. Fame. Her name her connections and who she was meant that I could climb that ladder and even though I have a beautiful daughter out of it...I never felt happy with her.
Ana Valentine was a means to an end.
An end where I get immortalised and remembered. But as time went on the unhappiness grew and I found out what others do. What is the point in immortality if you’re not happy?. Why should I care if I’m remembered in 20 years by fans if my own flesh and blood don’t like the man I was, the father I was?.
There was no point.
No light at the end of the tunnel. So I did what I had to do and I know a lot of people didn’t understand it or thought I was a bad person or a bad guy but now look at us.My ex wife is happily remarried, she has two beautiful babies. And here I am, with my own wonderful wife and my new baby boy. And with Dylan's birth came a realisation.
I don’t need to be who I was.
I don’t need to chase championships.
They will come to me as long as I simply enjoy my life and my career. As long as I do that I’ll keep winning. See I don’t need everyone to remember me when I know my son and daughter will. In 20 years time they will both talk about me, too me. And then as time goes on and they have children and their children have children I will be remembered.
A legend in my own family.
I’ve discovered what is really important and because of it I can have that balance. My personal life and the happiness I feel has a roll on effect into my career. Being a father is the real legacy.And now I don’t question if I’m worthy of it. Everything I do, I do it for my kids, for my wife. I do it for their future, for their security. And that is the greatest motivation of all. And with it no one, NO ONE can stand in my way.
And I dare anyone to try….
Sick validation, gut full of pills
Self-medication, it’s making me ill
Attention, attention, it’s all eyes on me
I’ll burn at the stake while you ache for the kill
Prey, we are all prey for the sorrow
“I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t excited about this and didn’t see it coming.”
Alex smiles slowly and leans back in his chair, his left arm leaning across the glass top table as he sighs deeply.
“Adrien Cochrane and Alex Jones, aside from the Graves’ we are the two biggest names to come out of FSociety. And I say that full well knowing that certain others from that company are trying to claim those laurels. But let’s face it, since that place closed Aurora and Damon have proved without a doubt they are the greatest tag team in the world. They then broke apart and have shown that they are also two of the best wrestlers in the world...period. With Damon winning the Young Lions and Aurora getting to the global cup final with me…”
“And then, what about me?. Since it closed I went on to be the WWH world champion, the Honor world champion and the global cup winner here.”
“And you?. You have been the face of NGW, the shining light who has stood in front of Matt Shields and his group of assholes and screamed “No”. You have been a big name draw and the best of the best, consistently winning and doing it without underhanded tactics. I don’t think it’s any secret I have a huge amount of respect for Adrien Cochrane. Truth is I do like you Adrien, I like you as a wrestler, as a man and as a co-worker. There is no issue here, there is no anger there is simply the spirit of competition….”
Alex smirks and pushes back from the table getting to his feet.
“In NGW you and I have been in tag matches, in FSW we were in a main event for their world title but you and I have never been in the ring one on one. And there’s the interesting tagline. See you and I are widely viewed as two of the best to ever step foot in a ring. We have both been world champions, we have both been to the top of this business time and time again. Objectively, not to be an ass but I have probably been there a few more times than you. But in the end we are both looked at as main event stars.”
“And that is what this is about. This match isn’t for a title, it’s not for a shot at one, this is just to see who is better. The fans will love it, the boys and girls in the back will all stand near monitors and watch from behind the curtain.”
“This is about respect and bragging rights, nothing more nothing less. In fact it’s probably the purest for of competition there is and the fact NGW is giving it away on Dissension is a pretty cool move. Hell this is the kind of match that I loved when I was a kid. Two guys who were great, two champions, stepping in the ring one on one, the “what if” questions answered...so good luck Adrien, win or lose I will respect you, I will shake your hand and thank you….”