Post by Jazmyn Rain on Apr 1, 2018 21:30:08 GMT -5
“Don’t Call it a Miracle...”
Date: April 1, 2018
On the day of Battle for London, Jazmyn Rain finds herself in the namesake of the big New Generation Wrestling pay-per-view as she sorts through the words she heard from Jack Tillman recently in regards to their match that is to take place on this night in one form or another. She’s not thinking about the question as to whether she is going to be cleared or not for tonight’s show. In fact, the look in her eyes reveals that she is not deterred by anything that has happened in the past, recent or otherwise, at all. Jazmyn may have seemed down and out after the events of Dissension two weeks ago, but her body language is indicating a completely different story. That determination remains in her eyes as she begins to speak her mind about Tillman’s words among other things on her mind.
Jazmyn Rain: Gosh, listening to those words that came out of Jack’s mouth… what do I even say about them? Where do I even start? I mean sure, for my age, I don’t have that much experience in this business of ours, but I have heard that tone of voice before. I have heard those types of words before. It’s happened time and time again that I am all too familiar with it and I admit that I may be out of context here but holy crap, with the way he talked about me, you can almost swear that he HATES me and doesn’t want me involved with professional wrestling at all. That’s true, isn’t it Jack? Whatever, that’s not relevant to me. I don’t care if you hate me or not because at the end of the day, you are not the first wrestler I have ever encountered in my career that has expressed the vibe and the tone you expressed when you talked about me and should you, in fact, REALLY hate me, you’re not the first one to do so either. You have so much in common with those wrestlers that I have encountered with such hatred in their hearts. You think and you act like you are the end all, be all of professional wrestling, for starters. You have made it easily clear that you don’t like me and that I am such a blight on this sport and you’ve likely made it a mission to rid this business of me.
But you know what?
That’s okay! No seriously, it is because at the end of the day, I know that the hatred in your heart is going to be one of the reasons why you are going to lose that championship to me tonight. I don’t carry that hate for you anymore. I let it all out in my last promo and those close to me have recently taught me a very valuable lesson creating an epiphany that I desperately needed to have. You want to act like I’m THAT far beneath you? Fine. You want to make it look like I’ve lived in a “fantasy world”, but you should know better. I’ve never lived in a dream world because from the first day that I entered this business, I have been privy and awake to the realities of this business. Maybe it’s YOU that needs to wake up because you are walking into this match tonight with an aura of invincibility. You think that I won’t get cleared for tonight and that even if I do, victory is inevitable for you. I mean seriously… you THOUGHT you planted seeds of fear and doubt? I admit that there may have been a point where I doubted the Five Lakes Championship would ever happen, but FEAR?
If I was afraid of you, I wouldn’t be making the efforts that I’ve made to try to get cleared for tonight. Food for thought there, “champ”
I used to be the type of person that would fear the worst, but that person had come and gone long before I ever set foot in an NGW ring! Lord knows I’ve overcome the worst of my fears to be the wrestler that I am today. Still, the very epitome of who you are is right in that pudding… when you described what “war” means to you.
Jazmyn takes a deep pause, sighing for a bit and looking a bit uncomfortable knowing the vivid picture Jack Tillman painted about war. Still, she is able to maintain her composure as she continues to express her thoughts.
Jazmyn Rain: Are respect and honor not two of the most basic components of this sport? Funny, I thought someone as technically gifted as you are would remember that. Or maybe you do, but with “war”, you completely dismiss it. I’m not surprised at all because from the very moment this thing started between you and I, you have fought with NEITHER. War means THAT much to you that you’re even willing to describe a vivid image of being mowed down with a machine gun and all the gory details of what you’d do to me after I’m dead? Putting those images out there doesn’t make me afraid of you. It honestly makes me pity you and I’m going to tell you why. Putting an image like that out there for the world to listen to tells me that you take this business VERY seriously and I’m not necessarily knocking that, but the fact that you have taken it to THAT extreme tells me that you, Jack Tillman, are OBSESSED with this business to extreme levels that should be considered unhealthy. It’s one thing to be passionate about your craft, but to take it to that extreme to where you just describe such a picture with no remorse at all?
Who’s REALLY the one living in fear? It’s not me! It’s YOU!
I listen to your words and I hear you describe this OBSESSION with this business and I HEAR that fear! You’re talking about how since you’ve won that Five Lakes Championship you’ve gone all around the world representing NGW in this country in that promotion and so on and so forth and you talk about it like if others don’t do what you do, they’re worthless. What does it matter to you what I do with the championship after I win it? Why are you THAT obsessed with it? It all boils down to one thing, and one thing only Jack: professional wrestling is ALL you have! You may have people surrounding you to support you. You may have the Destroyers by your side. But you want to know the cold, hard truth, Jack? It’s FLEETING! Matt, Kayla and Jaxon? All it takes is ONE REASON for them to betray you and leave you out in the cold. Chris Constantine? He could very well see a wrestler he feels is better than you and he kicks you to the curb. Those championship reigns? They don’t last forever. With all the abuse you choose to put yourself through going all around the world, are you even going to be in this business at the age of 42? Hell, are you even going to be wrestling at 32 at this rate? It’s one thing to take professional wrestling for granted and I know earlier in my career, that’s exactly what I did. But you have taken LIFE for granted! For you, there is no life outside of professional wrestling!
Who are your true friends? Where is your family?
Did you actually have a childhood, Jack?
Did you actually go out skateboarding or play PlayStation 2 when you were kid?
Do you even talk to your parents at all?
Have you ever THOUGHT about your life once the lights go out, once the fans leave the building for the last time, and once those ropes come down on your career? YOU HAVEN’T! You only live for the moment, Jack! The concept of limelight in professional wrestling? It’s only fleeting! Once it’s all gone Jack, what are you going to have left? Will your family still be there to support you? Will you even have any friends? When it’s all over for you, Jack, the closest friend you’re going to have is Mickey Rourke’s character from “The Wrestler”. It must suck being you… because wrestling is all you know and no matter what you accomplish, you will NEVER attain true happiness or satisfaction from within yourself! You do what you do to make OTHERS happy! The only time you’re ever happy is by hurting someone else. Period!
And you know that, don’t you?
Somewhere in there, you carry that fear that once it’s all over, you’re left with NOTHING!
Jazmyn’s look of determination in her eyes turns to anger as she continues to speak.
Jazmyn Rain: Me on the other hand? What do I have to lose? Maybe you will beat me again. Maybe you will rid NGW of me. Lord only knows! But at least I HAVE a family, at least I know I have friends who WILL be there for me no matter what. But I’m not thinking about that scenario. The scenario I’m thinking of is finding a way to overcome the incredible odds stacked against me to become the Five Lakes Champion and as bleak as it may look for me, I know that it won’t be enough to put me away. I know this not only from what I have overcome in my career and my life, but from a story I have about “believing”. You sit there, you act and talk like there’s no way winning the Five Lakes Championship is possible for me, but 10 years ago, there was a then-friend of mine… also a wrestler… in the same spot as I was… nobody believing in her, everyone thinking she was a waste of a roster space as you feel I am here in NGW… and I told her, and I’m not kidding you on this: “you have to believe! You HAVE to believe”... and this was the 2008 PARTY GIRL JAZMYN saying this. I told her “the only opinions that matter about you, are YOURS. THEY don’t matter!”
And tonight? I’m TAKING my own advice that I gave my then-friend 10 years ago!
When it comes to myself, your opinions about me don’t matter AT ALL!
I went from that party girl 10 years ago, to a PRW Intercontinental Champion only half a year into my mainstream career.
I went from a former cocaine addict with a two-year gap in her career, to being a GCW Global Champion within eight months of her return!
I went from the rock bottom of my entire GCW career to be Global Champion again!
I may not have the most orthodox path of a professional wrestler Jack, but I know deep down in my heart that my path is far more unique than YOURS could ever be because the path I’ve gone on has opened me up to better lessons to learn, more diverse experiences to have, more opportunities to live, to learn, to grow not just as a wrestler, but as a human being and everything I just mentioned gives me the wisdom and the strength to overcome the obstacles that face me tonight and to MAKE YOU TAP OUT!
I already know that should I win that title tonight, you and Constantine are going to call it a “fluke” like you do every single fucking time you lose! Feel free to do that if you must, but you’re not making ME look bad, you’re making YOURSELF look bad! Don’t call it a fluke, don’t call it a miracle…
...call it my big breakthrough moment in New Generation Wrestling!
Because when I win that Five Lakes Championship tonight… there’s NO LOOKING BACK!
Jazmyn takes a deep breath, having expressed all that was on her mind. She maintains that look of fight and determination on her face as she gets up to shut off the camera for the final time, knowing deep in her spirit that tonight is a night she’s going to pull off something incredible that she’s never going to forget!
Date: April 1, 2018
On the day of Battle for London, Jazmyn Rain finds herself in the namesake of the big New Generation Wrestling pay-per-view as she sorts through the words she heard from Jack Tillman recently in regards to their match that is to take place on this night in one form or another. She’s not thinking about the question as to whether she is going to be cleared or not for tonight’s show. In fact, the look in her eyes reveals that she is not deterred by anything that has happened in the past, recent or otherwise, at all. Jazmyn may have seemed down and out after the events of Dissension two weeks ago, but her body language is indicating a completely different story. That determination remains in her eyes as she begins to speak her mind about Tillman’s words among other things on her mind.
Jazmyn Rain: Gosh, listening to those words that came out of Jack’s mouth… what do I even say about them? Where do I even start? I mean sure, for my age, I don’t have that much experience in this business of ours, but I have heard that tone of voice before. I have heard those types of words before. It’s happened time and time again that I am all too familiar with it and I admit that I may be out of context here but holy crap, with the way he talked about me, you can almost swear that he HATES me and doesn’t want me involved with professional wrestling at all. That’s true, isn’t it Jack? Whatever, that’s not relevant to me. I don’t care if you hate me or not because at the end of the day, you are not the first wrestler I have ever encountered in my career that has expressed the vibe and the tone you expressed when you talked about me and should you, in fact, REALLY hate me, you’re not the first one to do so either. You have so much in common with those wrestlers that I have encountered with such hatred in their hearts. You think and you act like you are the end all, be all of professional wrestling, for starters. You have made it easily clear that you don’t like me and that I am such a blight on this sport and you’ve likely made it a mission to rid this business of me.
But you know what?
That’s okay! No seriously, it is because at the end of the day, I know that the hatred in your heart is going to be one of the reasons why you are going to lose that championship to me tonight. I don’t carry that hate for you anymore. I let it all out in my last promo and those close to me have recently taught me a very valuable lesson creating an epiphany that I desperately needed to have. You want to act like I’m THAT far beneath you? Fine. You want to make it look like I’ve lived in a “fantasy world”, but you should know better. I’ve never lived in a dream world because from the first day that I entered this business, I have been privy and awake to the realities of this business. Maybe it’s YOU that needs to wake up because you are walking into this match tonight with an aura of invincibility. You think that I won’t get cleared for tonight and that even if I do, victory is inevitable for you. I mean seriously… you THOUGHT you planted seeds of fear and doubt? I admit that there may have been a point where I doubted the Five Lakes Championship would ever happen, but FEAR?
If I was afraid of you, I wouldn’t be making the efforts that I’ve made to try to get cleared for tonight. Food for thought there, “champ”
I used to be the type of person that would fear the worst, but that person had come and gone long before I ever set foot in an NGW ring! Lord knows I’ve overcome the worst of my fears to be the wrestler that I am today. Still, the very epitome of who you are is right in that pudding… when you described what “war” means to you.
Jazmyn takes a deep pause, sighing for a bit and looking a bit uncomfortable knowing the vivid picture Jack Tillman painted about war. Still, she is able to maintain her composure as she continues to express her thoughts.
Jazmyn Rain: Are respect and honor not two of the most basic components of this sport? Funny, I thought someone as technically gifted as you are would remember that. Or maybe you do, but with “war”, you completely dismiss it. I’m not surprised at all because from the very moment this thing started between you and I, you have fought with NEITHER. War means THAT much to you that you’re even willing to describe a vivid image of being mowed down with a machine gun and all the gory details of what you’d do to me after I’m dead? Putting those images out there doesn’t make me afraid of you. It honestly makes me pity you and I’m going to tell you why. Putting an image like that out there for the world to listen to tells me that you take this business VERY seriously and I’m not necessarily knocking that, but the fact that you have taken it to THAT extreme tells me that you, Jack Tillman, are OBSESSED with this business to extreme levels that should be considered unhealthy. It’s one thing to be passionate about your craft, but to take it to that extreme to where you just describe such a picture with no remorse at all?
Who’s REALLY the one living in fear? It’s not me! It’s YOU!
I listen to your words and I hear you describe this OBSESSION with this business and I HEAR that fear! You’re talking about how since you’ve won that Five Lakes Championship you’ve gone all around the world representing NGW in this country in that promotion and so on and so forth and you talk about it like if others don’t do what you do, they’re worthless. What does it matter to you what I do with the championship after I win it? Why are you THAT obsessed with it? It all boils down to one thing, and one thing only Jack: professional wrestling is ALL you have! You may have people surrounding you to support you. You may have the Destroyers by your side. But you want to know the cold, hard truth, Jack? It’s FLEETING! Matt, Kayla and Jaxon? All it takes is ONE REASON for them to betray you and leave you out in the cold. Chris Constantine? He could very well see a wrestler he feels is better than you and he kicks you to the curb. Those championship reigns? They don’t last forever. With all the abuse you choose to put yourself through going all around the world, are you even going to be in this business at the age of 42? Hell, are you even going to be wrestling at 32 at this rate? It’s one thing to take professional wrestling for granted and I know earlier in my career, that’s exactly what I did. But you have taken LIFE for granted! For you, there is no life outside of professional wrestling!
Who are your true friends? Where is your family?
Did you actually have a childhood, Jack?
Did you actually go out skateboarding or play PlayStation 2 when you were kid?
Do you even talk to your parents at all?
Have you ever THOUGHT about your life once the lights go out, once the fans leave the building for the last time, and once those ropes come down on your career? YOU HAVEN’T! You only live for the moment, Jack! The concept of limelight in professional wrestling? It’s only fleeting! Once it’s all gone Jack, what are you going to have left? Will your family still be there to support you? Will you even have any friends? When it’s all over for you, Jack, the closest friend you’re going to have is Mickey Rourke’s character from “The Wrestler”. It must suck being you… because wrestling is all you know and no matter what you accomplish, you will NEVER attain true happiness or satisfaction from within yourself! You do what you do to make OTHERS happy! The only time you’re ever happy is by hurting someone else. Period!
And you know that, don’t you?
Somewhere in there, you carry that fear that once it’s all over, you’re left with NOTHING!
Jazmyn’s look of determination in her eyes turns to anger as she continues to speak.
Jazmyn Rain: Me on the other hand? What do I have to lose? Maybe you will beat me again. Maybe you will rid NGW of me. Lord only knows! But at least I HAVE a family, at least I know I have friends who WILL be there for me no matter what. But I’m not thinking about that scenario. The scenario I’m thinking of is finding a way to overcome the incredible odds stacked against me to become the Five Lakes Champion and as bleak as it may look for me, I know that it won’t be enough to put me away. I know this not only from what I have overcome in my career and my life, but from a story I have about “believing”. You sit there, you act and talk like there’s no way winning the Five Lakes Championship is possible for me, but 10 years ago, there was a then-friend of mine… also a wrestler… in the same spot as I was… nobody believing in her, everyone thinking she was a waste of a roster space as you feel I am here in NGW… and I told her, and I’m not kidding you on this: “you have to believe! You HAVE to believe”... and this was the 2008 PARTY GIRL JAZMYN saying this. I told her “the only opinions that matter about you, are YOURS. THEY don’t matter!”
And tonight? I’m TAKING my own advice that I gave my then-friend 10 years ago!
When it comes to myself, your opinions about me don’t matter AT ALL!
I went from that party girl 10 years ago, to a PRW Intercontinental Champion only half a year into my mainstream career.
I went from a former cocaine addict with a two-year gap in her career, to being a GCW Global Champion within eight months of her return!
I went from the rock bottom of my entire GCW career to be Global Champion again!
I may not have the most orthodox path of a professional wrestler Jack, but I know deep down in my heart that my path is far more unique than YOURS could ever be because the path I’ve gone on has opened me up to better lessons to learn, more diverse experiences to have, more opportunities to live, to learn, to grow not just as a wrestler, but as a human being and everything I just mentioned gives me the wisdom and the strength to overcome the obstacles that face me tonight and to MAKE YOU TAP OUT!
I already know that should I win that title tonight, you and Constantine are going to call it a “fluke” like you do every single fucking time you lose! Feel free to do that if you must, but you’re not making ME look bad, you’re making YOURSELF look bad! Don’t call it a fluke, don’t call it a miracle…
...call it my big breakthrough moment in New Generation Wrestling!
Because when I win that Five Lakes Championship tonight… there’s NO LOOKING BACK!
Jazmyn takes a deep breath, having expressed all that was on her mind. She maintains that look of fight and determination on her face as she gets up to shut off the camera for the final time, knowing deep in her spirit that tonight is a night she’s going to pull off something incredible that she’s never going to forget!
