Post by Jazmyn Rain on Mar 4, 2018 14:49:32 GMT -5
“Why Not Me?”
Date: March 1, 2018
Jazmyn Rain is in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania a few short days before Dissension is to take place across the Atlantic Ocean in Paris and there are plenty of thoughts going through her mind as her match with Matthew Shields draws closer. She’s not feeling the weight or the pressure of this match because she already knows that she’s going to be in a narrative that she has been involved with many times before. Still, the look on her face indicates that of some slight frustration as she sits on what are famously known as the “Rocky” steps. Watching a few people pass by in the chilly Philadelphia day, Jazmyn lets out a small sigh before she begins to speak her mind.
Jazmyn Rain: Last Dissension, the only thing that I am going to say about that is that the less said about it the better. But, that doesn’t mean that I am going to dismiss it because that would be low of me to do. I admit that after it was all said and done, my confidence did take a hit. I admit that all of the hearsay and all of the noise pretty much got to me after the match that I had and believe me when I say that it’s an experience that I never want to go through again. At the same time though, I’ve been through so much worse than that and I have OVERCOME much worse than that. So, all I could do, and what I ended up doing, is picking up the pieces and moving forward. It’s a learning experience that I am going to take forward and that’s that. But, maybe that experience is something that I needed, especially going into this match with Matthew Shields and oh my goodness, where do I even begin? I already know what he’s going to say. He’s so predictable. He’s a broken record. That’s what people like him do because in the grand scheme of things, what is it that they really have to say? I already know what’s coming. I know he’s going to release a promotional video about our match at some point and I can already see it, I can already hear it, so without even watching it, at least at this moment, I already know the three words that he is going to beat to death:
“Least important Guardian”
Jazmyn sighs and shakes her head.
Jazmyn Rain: Maybe that nonsense would be more effective if… oh I don’t know… I hadn’t heard it a million times already? Maybe it would actually be effective if… oh I don’t know… so many people throughout my entire wrestling journey haven’t tried to pin such a ridiculous label on me in one way, shape or form from day one? Let me be as blunt as possible and it’s quite uncommon for me to go off on this kind of soapbox, but do you know WHY Shields keeps repeating that nonsense? I’ll tell you why: because that’s ALL he has to say about me. “But isn’t that his point?” the stupid critic says. Do I not have a wrestling career worth talking about? Have I not been in NGW long enough for him to actually say something RELEVANT about me? It just goes to show you how ignorant he is. What else does he have to say about me? That he beat me in a match before?
Oh wait…
What happened the LAST time that I faced him one on one?
The rest of the Destroyers came out and put a beating on me, causing a disqualification.
Jazmyn pauses and even has a chuckle to herself as she recalls that moment.
Jazmyn Rain: Why don’t you ever talk about that, Matt? Oh wait, because saying something about it would contradict your narrative about me. I get it. But what you fail to realize is that you are boxing yourself in a trap when you keep going with this narrative. You not only have cut yourself off from anything relevant to say, knowing that it’s going to counteract your stupid narrative, but you have set yourself up for a huge fall come Sunday. What if you beat me? Wait… hold on...let me ask that same question that is more to your liking. What will it mean “WHEN” you beat me, as you have so eloquently painted your picture of total cow manure? Guess what? It’s not going to impress anyone much because for weeks and months, all you’ve ever “said” is “least important Guardian”. So, if you beat the “least important Guardian”, how impressive is it really? The way you have painted this picture is that I don’t deserve to be in the ring with you at all. So, “WHEN” you beat someone that doesn’t deserve to be in the ring with you, how much are people going to care? Oh wait, the criticism falls on YOU doesn’t it?
“Well, Shields beat someone that isn’t important. So what?”
And contrary to your claims, you DO care about how other people feel. More than half the chicken crap you spew is to draw feelings and reactions out of people. I’d be impressed with it if… oh I don’t know… I haven’t experienced that sort of crap before. Really, this chicken crap is even getting older than me at this point. So, in this scenario, you have a bunch of people on Twitter telling you “well, you beat the least important Guardian, not impressive at all” and you being you are going to be fighting back against every single one of them because your ego is so fragile that you can’t even handle criticism from ANYONE else and that includes the same Guardians that you hate so much. So basically, if you win? You’re damned! But what if you LOSE?
“Matt Shields just lost to the least important Guardian”
OOPS!
You think the pressure is on me knowing that, Matt? It’s NOT! It’s on YOU! When was the last time that you were even in contention for the NGW Championship? That pressure of trying to get another shot HAS to be daunting! If you lose to ME, “unimportant, irrelevant, ‘just there’” me, do you suddenly realize how much it would seriously damage your chances of getting back in the title hunt? Yeah, the “damage” would be more extensive than you think because at the end of the day, and I say this with all due respect to everyone in the Five Lakes division, former world champions aren’t supposed to lose to the number one contender to the Five Lakes Championship BUT come Sunday that’s what’s going to happen and that last encounter IS one of those reasons. You weren’t man enough to have a fair match with me the last time around and it’s that cowardice that tells me everything I need to know about you. Hell, they might as well call you Apollo Shields with how overconfident you are clearly going to be going into this match with your actions in our last match and the words you’ve been saying about me for months being very strong indicators! Sunday, I see to it that I finally silence you and I finally silence your bull manure.
I mean seriously… why not me?
Jazmyn takes a deep pause and a sigh, reflecting on a career that has seen her overcome such incredible odds again and again and again. Those moments flash before her as she recounts everything that she’s managed to accomplish in her career.
Jazmyn Rain: That’s a question I ask myself a lot. Why not me? Why can’t I defeat a seemingly invincible Intercontinental Champion in PRW to claim my first singles title ever? Why can’t I come back after a two-year layoff from wrestling after combating my own personal demons to be better than before? Why can’t I be the GCW Global Champion? Why can’t I come back from the most heart-wrenching, pardon my language… BULLSHIT, loss of my entire wrestling career to grow as a person and a wrestler, discover my true purpose of my entire life, and overcome evil after evil in the subsequent 20 months to regain that title? Why can’t I become the NGW Five Lakes Champion?
Why not me?
Because at the time of my first title win, I barely had any experience?
Because at the time I tried to come back, I was already 30 with having the limited experience that I did at my age to begin with? Because those demons were too much?
Because I had never gotten over the hump in my career at the moment I won my first Global Championship?
Because there was no way I could ever recover from the loss of that title after “proving” that I “couldn’t handle the pressure”?
Because I already lost to Jack Tillman at Homecoming albeit under very ridiculous circumstances and he’s far more “seasoned” than me?
Well, with THAT ONE, I WILL prove wrong on April 1 and that’s going to be no April Fool’s Joke, I’ll tell you that much right now and you want to know how and why I am so confident that I will prove that wrong? Because everything I mentioned before, I DID prove wrong. But before I get to that, I have to ask…
Yujiro Fujiwara beat Matt Shields. Adrien Cochrane beat Matt Shields.
So why not me?
Because I’m the “least important Guardian” in his mind?
Because he’s done more in NGW than I have?
Nonsense! All of it!
And on top of all that, Matt, I am not just doing this for me. Heck, I’m not even looking at this as a Guardians versus Destroyers thing because I want this match to be only about us, granted… like I just said, this isn’t JUST for me! This is for all the crap you’ve put Jessica through so this is for her as well. I’m being her Guardian Angel on Sunday and for her, I am going to make sure you get the biggest humbling since WrestleForce. So, you may want to do yourself a few favors: put aside your psychologically self-destructive OBSESSION with Adrien to the side for ONCE in your flipping career, put aside your obsession with Jessica, put aside all the Twitter subterfuge with Kayla and focus on what’s IMPORTANT on Sunday. Otherwise, you’re not only going to be silenced, you’re not only going to be humbled, you are going to be EMBARRASSED! Overlook me even one iota and I WILL EMBARRASS YOU!
That’s no threat! That’s a GUARANTEE!
Because I’ve just about had it with your horse manure!
I’m about ready to shove it all down your throat and when I do that, you’re going to feel sick to your stomach after it all comes right back out of your ass!
Once we’re done, once I beat you and silence you finally, the question won’t be coming from me, it’ll be coming from YOU. And the question won’t be “why not me?” it’ll be “WHY ME?”
Because when you DO lose to the “least important Guardian”, there is NOBODY that can save you from that utter humiliation that you are destined to experience by the time it’s all said and done!
Jazmyn lets out a passionate sigh, feeling much better after having let it all out. She stands up, walks down a few of the steps and shuts off the camera, focusing on the match to come in Paris.
Date: March 1, 2018
Jazmyn Rain is in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania a few short days before Dissension is to take place across the Atlantic Ocean in Paris and there are plenty of thoughts going through her mind as her match with Matthew Shields draws closer. She’s not feeling the weight or the pressure of this match because she already knows that she’s going to be in a narrative that she has been involved with many times before. Still, the look on her face indicates that of some slight frustration as she sits on what are famously known as the “Rocky” steps. Watching a few people pass by in the chilly Philadelphia day, Jazmyn lets out a small sigh before she begins to speak her mind.
Jazmyn Rain: Last Dissension, the only thing that I am going to say about that is that the less said about it the better. But, that doesn’t mean that I am going to dismiss it because that would be low of me to do. I admit that after it was all said and done, my confidence did take a hit. I admit that all of the hearsay and all of the noise pretty much got to me after the match that I had and believe me when I say that it’s an experience that I never want to go through again. At the same time though, I’ve been through so much worse than that and I have OVERCOME much worse than that. So, all I could do, and what I ended up doing, is picking up the pieces and moving forward. It’s a learning experience that I am going to take forward and that’s that. But, maybe that experience is something that I needed, especially going into this match with Matthew Shields and oh my goodness, where do I even begin? I already know what he’s going to say. He’s so predictable. He’s a broken record. That’s what people like him do because in the grand scheme of things, what is it that they really have to say? I already know what’s coming. I know he’s going to release a promotional video about our match at some point and I can already see it, I can already hear it, so without even watching it, at least at this moment, I already know the three words that he is going to beat to death:
“Least important Guardian”
Jazmyn sighs and shakes her head.
Jazmyn Rain: Maybe that nonsense would be more effective if… oh I don’t know… I hadn’t heard it a million times already? Maybe it would actually be effective if… oh I don’t know… so many people throughout my entire wrestling journey haven’t tried to pin such a ridiculous label on me in one way, shape or form from day one? Let me be as blunt as possible and it’s quite uncommon for me to go off on this kind of soapbox, but do you know WHY Shields keeps repeating that nonsense? I’ll tell you why: because that’s ALL he has to say about me. “But isn’t that his point?” the stupid critic says. Do I not have a wrestling career worth talking about? Have I not been in NGW long enough for him to actually say something RELEVANT about me? It just goes to show you how ignorant he is. What else does he have to say about me? That he beat me in a match before?
Oh wait…
What happened the LAST time that I faced him one on one?
The rest of the Destroyers came out and put a beating on me, causing a disqualification.
Jazmyn pauses and even has a chuckle to herself as she recalls that moment.
Jazmyn Rain: Why don’t you ever talk about that, Matt? Oh wait, because saying something about it would contradict your narrative about me. I get it. But what you fail to realize is that you are boxing yourself in a trap when you keep going with this narrative. You not only have cut yourself off from anything relevant to say, knowing that it’s going to counteract your stupid narrative, but you have set yourself up for a huge fall come Sunday. What if you beat me? Wait… hold on...let me ask that same question that is more to your liking. What will it mean “WHEN” you beat me, as you have so eloquently painted your picture of total cow manure? Guess what? It’s not going to impress anyone much because for weeks and months, all you’ve ever “said” is “least important Guardian”. So, if you beat the “least important Guardian”, how impressive is it really? The way you have painted this picture is that I don’t deserve to be in the ring with you at all. So, “WHEN” you beat someone that doesn’t deserve to be in the ring with you, how much are people going to care? Oh wait, the criticism falls on YOU doesn’t it?
“Well, Shields beat someone that isn’t important. So what?”
And contrary to your claims, you DO care about how other people feel. More than half the chicken crap you spew is to draw feelings and reactions out of people. I’d be impressed with it if… oh I don’t know… I haven’t experienced that sort of crap before. Really, this chicken crap is even getting older than me at this point. So, in this scenario, you have a bunch of people on Twitter telling you “well, you beat the least important Guardian, not impressive at all” and you being you are going to be fighting back against every single one of them because your ego is so fragile that you can’t even handle criticism from ANYONE else and that includes the same Guardians that you hate so much. So basically, if you win? You’re damned! But what if you LOSE?
“Matt Shields just lost to the least important Guardian”
OOPS!
You think the pressure is on me knowing that, Matt? It’s NOT! It’s on YOU! When was the last time that you were even in contention for the NGW Championship? That pressure of trying to get another shot HAS to be daunting! If you lose to ME, “unimportant, irrelevant, ‘just there’” me, do you suddenly realize how much it would seriously damage your chances of getting back in the title hunt? Yeah, the “damage” would be more extensive than you think because at the end of the day, and I say this with all due respect to everyone in the Five Lakes division, former world champions aren’t supposed to lose to the number one contender to the Five Lakes Championship BUT come Sunday that’s what’s going to happen and that last encounter IS one of those reasons. You weren’t man enough to have a fair match with me the last time around and it’s that cowardice that tells me everything I need to know about you. Hell, they might as well call you Apollo Shields with how overconfident you are clearly going to be going into this match with your actions in our last match and the words you’ve been saying about me for months being very strong indicators! Sunday, I see to it that I finally silence you and I finally silence your bull manure.
I mean seriously… why not me?
Jazmyn takes a deep pause and a sigh, reflecting on a career that has seen her overcome such incredible odds again and again and again. Those moments flash before her as she recounts everything that she’s managed to accomplish in her career.
Jazmyn Rain: That’s a question I ask myself a lot. Why not me? Why can’t I defeat a seemingly invincible Intercontinental Champion in PRW to claim my first singles title ever? Why can’t I come back after a two-year layoff from wrestling after combating my own personal demons to be better than before? Why can’t I be the GCW Global Champion? Why can’t I come back from the most heart-wrenching, pardon my language… BULLSHIT, loss of my entire wrestling career to grow as a person and a wrestler, discover my true purpose of my entire life, and overcome evil after evil in the subsequent 20 months to regain that title? Why can’t I become the NGW Five Lakes Champion?
Why not me?
Because at the time of my first title win, I barely had any experience?
Because at the time I tried to come back, I was already 30 with having the limited experience that I did at my age to begin with? Because those demons were too much?
Because I had never gotten over the hump in my career at the moment I won my first Global Championship?
Because there was no way I could ever recover from the loss of that title after “proving” that I “couldn’t handle the pressure”?
Because I already lost to Jack Tillman at Homecoming albeit under very ridiculous circumstances and he’s far more “seasoned” than me?
Well, with THAT ONE, I WILL prove wrong on April 1 and that’s going to be no April Fool’s Joke, I’ll tell you that much right now and you want to know how and why I am so confident that I will prove that wrong? Because everything I mentioned before, I DID prove wrong. But before I get to that, I have to ask…
Yujiro Fujiwara beat Matt Shields. Adrien Cochrane beat Matt Shields.
So why not me?
Because I’m the “least important Guardian” in his mind?
Because he’s done more in NGW than I have?
Nonsense! All of it!
And on top of all that, Matt, I am not just doing this for me. Heck, I’m not even looking at this as a Guardians versus Destroyers thing because I want this match to be only about us, granted… like I just said, this isn’t JUST for me! This is for all the crap you’ve put Jessica through so this is for her as well. I’m being her Guardian Angel on Sunday and for her, I am going to make sure you get the biggest humbling since WrestleForce. So, you may want to do yourself a few favors: put aside your psychologically self-destructive OBSESSION with Adrien to the side for ONCE in your flipping career, put aside your obsession with Jessica, put aside all the Twitter subterfuge with Kayla and focus on what’s IMPORTANT on Sunday. Otherwise, you’re not only going to be silenced, you’re not only going to be humbled, you are going to be EMBARRASSED! Overlook me even one iota and I WILL EMBARRASS YOU!
That’s no threat! That’s a GUARANTEE!
Because I’ve just about had it with your horse manure!
I’m about ready to shove it all down your throat and when I do that, you’re going to feel sick to your stomach after it all comes right back out of your ass!
Once we’re done, once I beat you and silence you finally, the question won’t be coming from me, it’ll be coming from YOU. And the question won’t be “why not me?” it’ll be “WHY ME?”
Because when you DO lose to the “least important Guardian”, there is NOBODY that can save you from that utter humiliation that you are destined to experience by the time it’s all said and done!
Jazmyn lets out a passionate sigh, feeling much better after having let it all out. She stands up, walks down a few of the steps and shuts off the camera, focusing on the match to come in Paris.
