Post by Jazmyn Rain on Feb 18, 2018 22:31:18 GMT -5
“Remembering What’s Important”
Date: February 18, 2018
In the waning hours before Dissension in Frankfurt, Germany, Jazmyn Rain sits inside of a small studio with the camera already rolling. Wearing a short, white sleeveless dress with a pair of Louboutin Mary Jane shoes to match, the number one contender to the NGW Five Lakes Championship is holding a folded piece of paper on her lap. The Guardian member looks a little nervous about what’s to come, but a deep breath calms her nerves, enabling her to stand up and speak her mind.
Jazmyn Rain: I’m going to start with a letter that I wrote to myself. This was Derek’s idea… he’s actually standing to the side right now watching me read this. Here goes…
Jazmyn unfolds the piece of paper in her hand and begins to read aloud…
Jazmyn Rain: “Jazmyn…
You have every reason to have your worries and fears, but what you need to remember is that you are better than every single one of those worries and fears. You need to remember who you are. You are the Guardian Angel, the GCW Global Champion, the future NGW Five Lakes Champion and one of the brightest, most incredible rags to riches stories in all of professional wrestling today.
You are not the “least important Guardian”
You are not a “bit player”
You are the most incredible, wonderful, beautiful human being that you always knew you could be deep down inside of you. You overcame the lowest of expectations when you first started wrestling to become what you are now. Did you err, screw up and form a bad habit of drugs due to the stresses and pressure of the business? Sure you did! But you also overcame that to return to the business you knew in your heart you were always meant to be part of.
It doesn’t matter that you started at 25.
It doesn’t matter that you lost two years due to bad choices you made.
It doesn’t matter that some of your NGW peers hate that you’re on a special event poster.
What matters is what you’ve overcome and THAT is what is important. You are special! You deserve that Rising Star Award. You deserve that “future of NGW” label because you’re not like anything NGW has ever seen. One match isn’t going to justify your fears, nor is it going to justify all the hearsay. Remember, what others say about you… DOESN’T matter! What’s important is the way YOU feel about YOU!
Look inside yourself…
Did you not overcome the most heartbreaking night of your wrestling career to be a Global Champion again?
What makes you DIFFERENT is what makes you SPECIAL! A match against Adrien, win or lose, isn’t going to change that.
Every single day, you overcome your past demons just by LIVING, by WRESTLING! Every single day, you’re a champion. The noise is not important. What’s important is that you are STRONG! The person you were when you first started wrestling was STRONG. You wouldn’t be here today if she wasn’t.
I love you! I would never change a thing about you because every step of your journey has made you the wrestler champion and the person you’ve become… and it’s making you the icon and the inspiration to so many like you: fans, peers and friends alike… that you WILL become when it’s all said and done.
Signed…
Your future self… circa 2024.”
Jazmyn folds the letter and re-folds it, putting it down on the chair. The words of the letter she just read aloud strike her right in her spirit and as soon as she turns back toward the camera, she loses it as tears start to fill her eyes. In a moment of spontaneous action, Derek, her fiance… walks into the shot and the tears start flowing down her face as the two are locked in an incredible embrace.
Derek: You are the most amazing thing that I’ve ever had in my life!!!
Jazmyn Rain: Thank you!!!!
The two look at each other as Derek wipes away her tears.
Derek: You ARE important!
Jazmyn Rain: Damn right I am!!!
Jazmyn smiles through her tears as Derek walks out of the camera shot. This gives Jazmyn some time to compose herself before getting to her thoughts.
Jazmyn Rain: Adrien… I’m sorry about the way I came off. My fears and my worries got the better of me. Words of others got the better of me. But I heard what you said… and in part, it has managed to snap me out of it. After hearing what you had to say, I had to look within myself and I had to remember what is truly important. The Destroyers focusing mostly on you? Not important. Damon Graves grouping me as a “bit player”? Not important. Kaylee Kassie criticizing me for not being the kind of woman she is? Not important. What IS important is remembering what I am at heart! Yes, I have my flaws, but that’s OKAY! For a while, I was thinking that maybe who I am wasn’t worthy of being in an NGW ring, or being in the ring with a Jack Tillman, or being on a poster, or being the Rising Star Award winner. But now I remember that what people have to say about me don’t matter a damn bit! Your words reminded me of that, so perhaps I should give some serious thanks for them.
Because seriously… the last time I spoke about this match, I wasn’t Jazmyn Rain, the wrestler and person I know I am! If I had gone into tonight’s match with the mindset that I had when I said what I said before, I wouldn’t have been able to give you my best tonight and that would have actually damaged our friendship more than whatever outcome comes out of this. Thank you for giving me the courage to be confident again because after weeks and weeks of hearing negativity again and again and again, it DOES get to you after so long and I was at my breaking point. So… your words… snapping me out of that breaking point… gosh, how could I ever repay that?
Right, the answer is obvious.
By giving you the best match that I could possibly give you, because over in GCW, against a friend I similarly consider a brother, that’s exactly what I did with my Global Championship on the line. Our friendship became stronger than ever because of it and I have no doubt that after it’s all said and done tonight, that’s exactly what is going to happen here also. I’m not going to be afraid of that stupid hearsay anymore. I know that there is a strong section of the roster here that doesn’t view me as much whether it’s because I’m a so-called “bit player” in the Guardians… or because I haven’t won a title in NGW yet, or any other reason… I know that I’m one of the most… no fuck it, I AM the most underrated wrestler on this roster as much as I HATE to admit it. But what does it matter in the grand scheme of things, Adrien?
Nothing!
Losing this match to you isn’t going to prove ANY of that negative hearsay right and hearing your words helped me realized that. I appreciate you wanting me to have the recognition that much of the roster isn’t giving me, but I want to make one thing very clear. You won’t be damaging a damn thing if you win this match and if you go into this match fearing for that, you are going to find yourself subconsciously holding back against me and deep down in my competitive spirit, that’s the last thing I want.
You’re not holding me back! It’s not your fault that many view you as the “only Guardian that matters” or whatever the hell else people want to say. You’re not the reason why I’m not Five Lakes Champion, that much should be obvious to you. Think about it Adrien… think about how we came together. Think about the fact that Stacy’s injury made this possible. Think about the fact that I was there for you after that relationship ended. My feelings aren’t going to be hurt if you beat me! I’m going to be more than okay! You and I both know that the Guardians aren’t going to be forever, but our friendship? THAT is what is going to be forever! One match doesn’t change that!
Where we are respectively on the NGW ladder doesn’t change that. Never have I been envious or jealous of you. Never have I felt that you’ve overshadowed me. I’ve overcome the heartbreak, the drugs, the ups and downs, the criticisms, the idiots I’ve encountered in my career that wanted to bring me down and tell me that I wouldn’t amount to anything in professional wrestling… I am strong, Adrien. Win or lose, this match is going to make me stronger! YOU are going to make me stronger, and hell, that’s all you’ve ever done for me from the day we met each other. You are going to be a reason why, as you said… I’m going to be one of the greats in NGW. You have no idea how much you have impacted my life in a positive way! Do me a favor…
Don’t focus on the negative. Don’t focus on the hearsay.
Remember what’s important…
Our fans…
Our friendship…
Our FAMILY!
If we don’t give this everything we have, we’re letting them all down!
Our friendship is going to grow stronger from this! I promise you that! This match is going to make the Guardians stronger!
Give me everything you got, Adrien… please! Please help make me, our friendship and our family stronger!
Tonight? That’s all I ever want from you! The outcome? Forget that.
What’s REALLY important is our bond and our friendship growing stronger! Isn’t that a victory in and of itself?
Don’t worry about me… this match is going to make me better and stronger. I’ll be fine.
I love you my friend… and thank you in advance for the strength you’re about to give me tonight!
Jazmyn sighs, letting a couple of tears stream down her face before she wipes them away. Taking a deep breath, the number one contender to the Five Lakes Championship is finally calm with the stress off of her shoulders. She picks up the folded letter and sits down, unfolding it again and reading it once more… although to herself this time and not out loud… to further remind herself of the champion that she is growing to become one day!
Date: February 18, 2018
In the waning hours before Dissension in Frankfurt, Germany, Jazmyn Rain sits inside of a small studio with the camera already rolling. Wearing a short, white sleeveless dress with a pair of Louboutin Mary Jane shoes to match, the number one contender to the NGW Five Lakes Championship is holding a folded piece of paper on her lap. The Guardian member looks a little nervous about what’s to come, but a deep breath calms her nerves, enabling her to stand up and speak her mind.
Jazmyn Rain: I’m going to start with a letter that I wrote to myself. This was Derek’s idea… he’s actually standing to the side right now watching me read this. Here goes…
Jazmyn unfolds the piece of paper in her hand and begins to read aloud…
Jazmyn Rain: “Jazmyn…
You have every reason to have your worries and fears, but what you need to remember is that you are better than every single one of those worries and fears. You need to remember who you are. You are the Guardian Angel, the GCW Global Champion, the future NGW Five Lakes Champion and one of the brightest, most incredible rags to riches stories in all of professional wrestling today.
You are not the “least important Guardian”
You are not a “bit player”
You are the most incredible, wonderful, beautiful human being that you always knew you could be deep down inside of you. You overcame the lowest of expectations when you first started wrestling to become what you are now. Did you err, screw up and form a bad habit of drugs due to the stresses and pressure of the business? Sure you did! But you also overcame that to return to the business you knew in your heart you were always meant to be part of.
It doesn’t matter that you started at 25.
It doesn’t matter that you lost two years due to bad choices you made.
It doesn’t matter that some of your NGW peers hate that you’re on a special event poster.
What matters is what you’ve overcome and THAT is what is important. You are special! You deserve that Rising Star Award. You deserve that “future of NGW” label because you’re not like anything NGW has ever seen. One match isn’t going to justify your fears, nor is it going to justify all the hearsay. Remember, what others say about you… DOESN’T matter! What’s important is the way YOU feel about YOU!
Look inside yourself…
Did you not overcome the most heartbreaking night of your wrestling career to be a Global Champion again?
What makes you DIFFERENT is what makes you SPECIAL! A match against Adrien, win or lose, isn’t going to change that.
Every single day, you overcome your past demons just by LIVING, by WRESTLING! Every single day, you’re a champion. The noise is not important. What’s important is that you are STRONG! The person you were when you first started wrestling was STRONG. You wouldn’t be here today if she wasn’t.
I love you! I would never change a thing about you because every step of your journey has made you the wrestler champion and the person you’ve become… and it’s making you the icon and the inspiration to so many like you: fans, peers and friends alike… that you WILL become when it’s all said and done.
Signed…
Your future self… circa 2024.”
Jazmyn folds the letter and re-folds it, putting it down on the chair. The words of the letter she just read aloud strike her right in her spirit and as soon as she turns back toward the camera, she loses it as tears start to fill her eyes. In a moment of spontaneous action, Derek, her fiance… walks into the shot and the tears start flowing down her face as the two are locked in an incredible embrace.
Derek: You are the most amazing thing that I’ve ever had in my life!!!
Jazmyn Rain: Thank you!!!!
The two look at each other as Derek wipes away her tears.
Derek: You ARE important!
Jazmyn Rain: Damn right I am!!!
Jazmyn smiles through her tears as Derek walks out of the camera shot. This gives Jazmyn some time to compose herself before getting to her thoughts.
Jazmyn Rain: Adrien… I’m sorry about the way I came off. My fears and my worries got the better of me. Words of others got the better of me. But I heard what you said… and in part, it has managed to snap me out of it. After hearing what you had to say, I had to look within myself and I had to remember what is truly important. The Destroyers focusing mostly on you? Not important. Damon Graves grouping me as a “bit player”? Not important. Kaylee Kassie criticizing me for not being the kind of woman she is? Not important. What IS important is remembering what I am at heart! Yes, I have my flaws, but that’s OKAY! For a while, I was thinking that maybe who I am wasn’t worthy of being in an NGW ring, or being in the ring with a Jack Tillman, or being on a poster, or being the Rising Star Award winner. But now I remember that what people have to say about me don’t matter a damn bit! Your words reminded me of that, so perhaps I should give some serious thanks for them.
Because seriously… the last time I spoke about this match, I wasn’t Jazmyn Rain, the wrestler and person I know I am! If I had gone into tonight’s match with the mindset that I had when I said what I said before, I wouldn’t have been able to give you my best tonight and that would have actually damaged our friendship more than whatever outcome comes out of this. Thank you for giving me the courage to be confident again because after weeks and weeks of hearing negativity again and again and again, it DOES get to you after so long and I was at my breaking point. So… your words… snapping me out of that breaking point… gosh, how could I ever repay that?
Right, the answer is obvious.
By giving you the best match that I could possibly give you, because over in GCW, against a friend I similarly consider a brother, that’s exactly what I did with my Global Championship on the line. Our friendship became stronger than ever because of it and I have no doubt that after it’s all said and done tonight, that’s exactly what is going to happen here also. I’m not going to be afraid of that stupid hearsay anymore. I know that there is a strong section of the roster here that doesn’t view me as much whether it’s because I’m a so-called “bit player” in the Guardians… or because I haven’t won a title in NGW yet, or any other reason… I know that I’m one of the most… no fuck it, I AM the most underrated wrestler on this roster as much as I HATE to admit it. But what does it matter in the grand scheme of things, Adrien?
Nothing!
Losing this match to you isn’t going to prove ANY of that negative hearsay right and hearing your words helped me realized that. I appreciate you wanting me to have the recognition that much of the roster isn’t giving me, but I want to make one thing very clear. You won’t be damaging a damn thing if you win this match and if you go into this match fearing for that, you are going to find yourself subconsciously holding back against me and deep down in my competitive spirit, that’s the last thing I want.
You’re not holding me back! It’s not your fault that many view you as the “only Guardian that matters” or whatever the hell else people want to say. You’re not the reason why I’m not Five Lakes Champion, that much should be obvious to you. Think about it Adrien… think about how we came together. Think about the fact that Stacy’s injury made this possible. Think about the fact that I was there for you after that relationship ended. My feelings aren’t going to be hurt if you beat me! I’m going to be more than okay! You and I both know that the Guardians aren’t going to be forever, but our friendship? THAT is what is going to be forever! One match doesn’t change that!
Where we are respectively on the NGW ladder doesn’t change that. Never have I been envious or jealous of you. Never have I felt that you’ve overshadowed me. I’ve overcome the heartbreak, the drugs, the ups and downs, the criticisms, the idiots I’ve encountered in my career that wanted to bring me down and tell me that I wouldn’t amount to anything in professional wrestling… I am strong, Adrien. Win or lose, this match is going to make me stronger! YOU are going to make me stronger, and hell, that’s all you’ve ever done for me from the day we met each other. You are going to be a reason why, as you said… I’m going to be one of the greats in NGW. You have no idea how much you have impacted my life in a positive way! Do me a favor…
Don’t focus on the negative. Don’t focus on the hearsay.
Remember what’s important…
Our fans…
Our friendship…
Our FAMILY!
If we don’t give this everything we have, we’re letting them all down!
Our friendship is going to grow stronger from this! I promise you that! This match is going to make the Guardians stronger!
Give me everything you got, Adrien… please! Please help make me, our friendship and our family stronger!
Tonight? That’s all I ever want from you! The outcome? Forget that.
What’s REALLY important is our bond and our friendship growing stronger! Isn’t that a victory in and of itself?
Don’t worry about me… this match is going to make me better and stronger. I’ll be fine.
I love you my friend… and thank you in advance for the strength you’re about to give me tonight!
Jazmyn sighs, letting a couple of tears stream down her face before she wipes them away. Taking a deep breath, the number one contender to the Five Lakes Championship is finally calm with the stress off of her shoulders. She picks up the folded letter and sits down, unfolding it again and reading it once more… although to herself this time and not out loud… to further remind herself of the champion that she is growing to become one day!
