Post by Tasmin Richards on Feb 9, 2018 21:54:28 GMT -5
"I don't know if I'm cut out for this..."
Tasmin Richards sits cross legged on the floor of her room. Her long hair tied back away from her face, no make up, just Tasmin as she has always been open and honest.
"Self doubt is a hell of a bullet to hit your chest. This business is all about self confidence and that is something I have always failed to have. I'm not like my siblings, I'm not like Jaxon, a huge human being who can crush people under his boot in seconds, I'm not like Amber someone who can take tremendous amounts of physical and mental abuse and just smile. I'm not like Kayla, the epitome of arrogance. I'm just little ol Tasmin Richards...I'm a 19 year old who up until 6 months ago lived at home looking over college applications before deciding I wanted to do this..."
"See I'm not just a rookie in this company, I'm a rookie in general. Some others have an amazing amount of experience in training rings or indy shows. Hell Jason has about ten times my experience and even he, at his age is a "rookie". He said it himself. I don't listen to his advice. Maybe I'm just not cut out for it. I look at my siblings and the other people around me. Jason, Matt, Jack Tillman, Coda. They all have a killer instinct. They all have this willingness to look at an opponent that is vulnerable and hurt, aim the gun and pull the trigger. Hell even the "good" people of the wrestling world, the Adrien Cochranes, the Avery Miles'...They know when it's time to put moral's aside and just do what they need to..."
Tasmin bites her bottom lip and looks down as her fingers fiddle together.
"Despite the fact I have this self doubt inside me I keep getting told I'm doing just fine, people pat my back and give me confidence and have faith in me. They say b"Oh Tasmin you're so young and have so much natural talent". It lifts my heart, but every loss, every setback no matter how much I look at it as a learning experience just seems to hurt. But here we are, the next Hype episode and I'm in a scramble match with 5 other athletes. All very talented. And while I can't promise I'll win I can promise I'll do my best no matter what I have in my heart."
"I mean I get to step back in the ring with Wasabi, a man who I was able to beat but a guy I have a super amount of respect for. See Wasabi and I went at it and even though I came out the winner I felt it after. See I know he's a legit threat in this match. But then again everyone is. Although I'm not that familiar with Jack Wilde or Piper Lockewood. And all I know about James Pridemore is he likes to tug on Julianna's giant flaps for protection and relevancy"
"I know Iphy likes cooking....I like eggs..."
"But I'll try my best in this match like I always do, I'll step in that ring and I will give all my heart and all my soul. I will take anything thrown at me and after, win, lose or draw I'll know I did my best and I did it my way....can all of you say the same?..."