Post by Jazmyn Rain on Jan 19, 2018 0:13:14 GMT -5
“Open Book”
Opening Thoughts
Jazmyn Rain: Let’s just get on with the situation at hand. Homecoming was a brutal thing to go through as far as my pursuit of the Five Lakes Championship is concerned. I was so confident that I was going to beat Jack Tillman for the championship and score a huge victory for the Guardians, but unfortunately, that wasn’t the case at all due to some acrimonious cheating on the part of Tillman, his bitch of a manager among other things. It’s all a part of a sad narrative that’s part of my wrestling career.
Let’s just say that this isn’t the first time I’ve been screwed out of a championship and suffice to say, I feel like I go through that sort of crap more than anyone in this business and I’m almost at my last nerve with it.
But still, despite knowing how it happened, I couldn’t resist the temptation to feel that I had let so many people down. I know the Guardians were counting on me. My family was counting on me, my friends were counting on me, my fans were counting on me and the stinging feeling of failure that I had in the immediate aftermath was just so sharp that you might as well have stuck a collection of daggers through my spirit. If I had lost to Tillman fair and square, that’s one thing. But to lose the match like THAT?
UGH!
I’m so tired of losing matches that way. It makes me feel like I’m THAT unworthy to my opponent that they just take that low road with me because they don’t think I’m worth beating fairly, or something to that effect. I can’t say for sure. My head was spinning about the whole situation even going into the next day. I was worried that with my rising stardom that I was going to get gashed and criticized by the naysayers that love to swim in a shark infested circle around me. Normally, in this situation, I’d crack and I’d lose my cool knowing that I was going to get ravaged by this loss.
But this time, it’s different. Because now? I’m not dealing with this alone. Yes, I have the Guardians and I love them all to death, but I know that in this situation, representation is exactly what I needed. Thankfully, in the day before Homecoming, I decided to take on representation and on the day of night two, I really did need every ounce of her help that I could get.
Date: January 8, 2018
In the hours prior to night two of Homecoming, Jazmyn Rain sports her fashionable black dress, coat and knee-high boots combination as she walks down the hallway of the Quicken Loans Arena. She’s still a bit flustered from the night before with feelings of disappointment and regrets lingering within her still, but she is definitely feeling much better than she did after getting a good night’s rest and being able to process things a little more clear. She finds a specific door that she happened to be looking for and she walks into what is obviously her locker room. It’s empty, which gives her some time to reflect as she sits down in front of her locker.
Jazmyn: Why did that happen to me last night?
Jazmyn is still trying to find a purpose in the events of the night before.
Jazmyn: In my heart, I had it won. But I guess I’m not “worth” a fair match in NGW, am I?
Voice: Don’t say that, Jaz.
Jazmyn looks up and she sees Camryn Rourke, her collegiate best friend and now her agent walking toward her. She gets to her and sits down to her right. The two lock eyes as they both try to sort through this entire event together.
Camryn: I know that last night was awful, especially with all of those people counting on you…
Jazmyn: Please don’t remind me…
Camryn: Jaz, listen to me. Like it or not, you have so many people that love and adore you. I’m not talking about just me, I’m not talking about just the Guardians, or your other friends or your family. I’m talking about millions of people across the world that watch you do what you do. Plus, running away from those fans that wanted a picture from you the day before yesterday isn’t good form. You don’t want something like that being spread around, do you? It can ruin your reputation.
Jazmyn: But that’s the thing, Cammie. I don’t do this for “reputation”. I don’t do this to be a star. I do this because wrestling is my purpose. Sure, I want to inspire people, but this is more than I bargained for… and more than I want, to be honest.
Camryn: Jazmyn, we need to unwind your thought process here. Wrestling is not your purpose.
Jazmyn shoots a quick, angry glare at Camryn, not liking that she’s challenging what her thought process has been since the moment she decided to become a wrestler.
Jazmyn: Excuse me?
Camryn: I don’t mean it in a bad way. Wrestling is your OUTLET for your purpose, but it’s not your purpose, does that make sense?
Jazmyn still looks confused, not knowing exactly what her agent is trying to get at.
Camryn: Think about the words you just said to me right now. In there, you actually did mention your purpose. And if you still can’t remember, think about all you’ve been through since your life changed for the better. Reflect on your three-minute death experience and how you came out of that realizing what your true purpose… your destiny… really is.
Jazmyn’s eyes widen as an epiphany is coming to her. What flashes in her mind instantly is a dream that she had while she was in the hospital following her “death and revival” experience in August of 2016. She remembers a portion of that dream when she said that her destiny was to inspire other people and it’s that reflection that causes her to realize what Camryn is getting at.
Jazmyn: I remember this dream I had… while I was fighting for my life over a year ago… and I was in this conversation with this person and I told her, the moment that it hit me, that my destiny in this world is to be a champion by inspiring others and once I woke up and left the hospital, I became driven to fulfill that purpose. In some respects, I’ve done that time and time again. But last night, I…
Camryn: No, you didn’t fail that purpose, before you even say it.
Jazmyn: But that’s what you were trying to say, right? Is wrestling my outlet for that purpose?
Camryn: Exactly.
Jazmyn: I’d rather do that in the ring wrestling than some sponsorship deal with a stupid car company or an endorsement deal with the hottest cosmetic trend of the time. I don’t mind the photoshoots, but that’s as far as I want to take that. I’m not someone that wants to be this corporate megastar because that’s not who I am. I’m not for sale to have my face and image sold around the world by corporate America who would only see dollar signs in me and not the person that I am at heart.
Camryn: That’s noble, Jazmyn and that’s something that we can definitely go forward with, but we can’t ignore the fans. We can’t just move past the fact that your fans have grown to love you so much that they want a piece of you. Now, you answer me this. Aside from merchandise NGW and GCW produce for you, do you even market yourself at all?
Jazmyn shakes her head.
Camryn: Do you even reach out to people? Do you even reach out to charitable causes trying to partner with them to fight for a cause that you strongly believe in?
Jazmyn: Honestly? No… not really.
Camryn: Jaz, I know you don’t realize this, so I am going to tell you right now. You can’t be in a bubble all the time. It’s not fair to your fans. I’m not saying you have to go out and be a pretty face for Maybelline or something ridiculous like that, but would it hurt you to reach out to people? Would it hurt to partner with a charitable cause? You have so much to offer besides what you do in the ring, Jazmyn. Don't you think that those that are inspired by you would want more of you in some form or another?
Jazmyn: Yes but…
Camryn: But nothing! Don’t hide anymore. Put yourself out there a little more. If you don’t want to deal with corporate America, but want to reach out to the fans that love you, you should think about writing a book about your wrestling career.
Jazmyn scoots away from Camryn slightly, indicating that she’s not quite down with the idea.
Jazmyn: I don’t know… that would seem selfish of me.
Camryn: How so?
Jazmyn: I mean… to put my life out there like that and take money from fans…
Camryn: No Jazmyn, what’s selfish of you is containing yourself in this bubble you’re in, keeping yourself from the fans. They want to know more about you, do they not? And who said that you have to keep the profits? I get that you’re not that type of person, Jazmyn and I understand those concerns. But those profits? You can do some GOOD with those. Think of a charitable cause that you are deeply passionate about, something that you can relate to that’s close to your heart that you want to fight for and bring greater awareness to.
Jazmyn: That’s an easy one: mental health. I can relate so much to those that are trying to cope and manage it because I KNOW that struggle like the back of my hand.
Camryn: Alright. So wouldn’t writing a book about your wrestling career and donating your profits to say, a mental health awareness organization actually fulfill your purpose of inspiring other people?
Jazmyn’s eyes widen, realizing the truth in Camryn’s question.
Jazmyn: And not doing such a thing… yeah, that would be selfish of me, wouldn’t it?
Camryn: Now you understand what I’m telling you. You’re meeting the demands of your passionate fans, you’re opening your heart to them, connecting with them, and you’re doing it for a tremendous cause. It’s a win for everyone, including you!
Jazmyn smiles and her eyes glisten, her heart now being touched with the idea of writing a book about her wrestling career as a way to inspire her fans as well as support mental health awareness.
Jazmyn: You’re right!
Camryn: So?
Jazmyn: I’m doing it, Cammie! I’m writing that book!
Camryn: Wonderful! I’ll try to secure those publishing rights. Yes, the publisher will take some cut… but of course, whatever profits are left over, you can donate those. As for the situation at hand… all I have to tell you is to talk to Devlin about it. But try to keep your cool and be as courteous as possible, okay?
Jazmyn smiles and nods, leading to the two of them standing up and giving each other a hug.
Jazmyn: Thanks, Cammie, you really helped me just now. I think I see the light at the end of the tunnel to manage this “stardom” that I have going on.
Camryn: Hey what are friends… and agents… for, right?
Jazmyn: I’m glad I hired you!
The two of them share a laugh.
Camryn: I’ll talk to you later. I need to get to work on those publishing rights.
The two nod at each other before Camryn leaves the locker room. Jazmyn is left alone, inspired by the events that just happened and happy with how the quandary of her reluctant stardom has just been resolved. Now that she’s out of her funk over the night before, Jazmyn Rain is determined to make things right. The fire within her heart to become NGW Five Lakes Champion has just been re-lit and now there is nothing, not a person or an event, that is going to keep her from becoming that Five Lakes Champion the “Guardian Angel” knows she can be.
Opening Thoughts
Jazmyn Rain: Let’s just get on with the situation at hand. Homecoming was a brutal thing to go through as far as my pursuit of the Five Lakes Championship is concerned. I was so confident that I was going to beat Jack Tillman for the championship and score a huge victory for the Guardians, but unfortunately, that wasn’t the case at all due to some acrimonious cheating on the part of Tillman, his bitch of a manager among other things. It’s all a part of a sad narrative that’s part of my wrestling career.
Let’s just say that this isn’t the first time I’ve been screwed out of a championship and suffice to say, I feel like I go through that sort of crap more than anyone in this business and I’m almost at my last nerve with it.
But still, despite knowing how it happened, I couldn’t resist the temptation to feel that I had let so many people down. I know the Guardians were counting on me. My family was counting on me, my friends were counting on me, my fans were counting on me and the stinging feeling of failure that I had in the immediate aftermath was just so sharp that you might as well have stuck a collection of daggers through my spirit. If I had lost to Tillman fair and square, that’s one thing. But to lose the match like THAT?
UGH!
I’m so tired of losing matches that way. It makes me feel like I’m THAT unworthy to my opponent that they just take that low road with me because they don’t think I’m worth beating fairly, or something to that effect. I can’t say for sure. My head was spinning about the whole situation even going into the next day. I was worried that with my rising stardom that I was going to get gashed and criticized by the naysayers that love to swim in a shark infested circle around me. Normally, in this situation, I’d crack and I’d lose my cool knowing that I was going to get ravaged by this loss.
But this time, it’s different. Because now? I’m not dealing with this alone. Yes, I have the Guardians and I love them all to death, but I know that in this situation, representation is exactly what I needed. Thankfully, in the day before Homecoming, I decided to take on representation and on the day of night two, I really did need every ounce of her help that I could get.
Date: January 8, 2018
In the hours prior to night two of Homecoming, Jazmyn Rain sports her fashionable black dress, coat and knee-high boots combination as she walks down the hallway of the Quicken Loans Arena. She’s still a bit flustered from the night before with feelings of disappointment and regrets lingering within her still, but she is definitely feeling much better than she did after getting a good night’s rest and being able to process things a little more clear. She finds a specific door that she happened to be looking for and she walks into what is obviously her locker room. It’s empty, which gives her some time to reflect as she sits down in front of her locker.
Jazmyn: Why did that happen to me last night?
Jazmyn is still trying to find a purpose in the events of the night before.
Jazmyn: In my heart, I had it won. But I guess I’m not “worth” a fair match in NGW, am I?
Voice: Don’t say that, Jaz.
Jazmyn looks up and she sees Camryn Rourke, her collegiate best friend and now her agent walking toward her. She gets to her and sits down to her right. The two lock eyes as they both try to sort through this entire event together.
Camryn: I know that last night was awful, especially with all of those people counting on you…
Jazmyn: Please don’t remind me…
Camryn: Jaz, listen to me. Like it or not, you have so many people that love and adore you. I’m not talking about just me, I’m not talking about just the Guardians, or your other friends or your family. I’m talking about millions of people across the world that watch you do what you do. Plus, running away from those fans that wanted a picture from you the day before yesterday isn’t good form. You don’t want something like that being spread around, do you? It can ruin your reputation.
Jazmyn: But that’s the thing, Cammie. I don’t do this for “reputation”. I don’t do this to be a star. I do this because wrestling is my purpose. Sure, I want to inspire people, but this is more than I bargained for… and more than I want, to be honest.
Camryn: Jazmyn, we need to unwind your thought process here. Wrestling is not your purpose.
Jazmyn shoots a quick, angry glare at Camryn, not liking that she’s challenging what her thought process has been since the moment she decided to become a wrestler.
Jazmyn: Excuse me?
Camryn: I don’t mean it in a bad way. Wrestling is your OUTLET for your purpose, but it’s not your purpose, does that make sense?
Jazmyn still looks confused, not knowing exactly what her agent is trying to get at.
Camryn: Think about the words you just said to me right now. In there, you actually did mention your purpose. And if you still can’t remember, think about all you’ve been through since your life changed for the better. Reflect on your three-minute death experience and how you came out of that realizing what your true purpose… your destiny… really is.
Jazmyn’s eyes widen as an epiphany is coming to her. What flashes in her mind instantly is a dream that she had while she was in the hospital following her “death and revival” experience in August of 2016. She remembers a portion of that dream when she said that her destiny was to inspire other people and it’s that reflection that causes her to realize what Camryn is getting at.
Jazmyn: I remember this dream I had… while I was fighting for my life over a year ago… and I was in this conversation with this person and I told her, the moment that it hit me, that my destiny in this world is to be a champion by inspiring others and once I woke up and left the hospital, I became driven to fulfill that purpose. In some respects, I’ve done that time and time again. But last night, I…
Camryn: No, you didn’t fail that purpose, before you even say it.
Jazmyn: But that’s what you were trying to say, right? Is wrestling my outlet for that purpose?
Camryn: Exactly.
Jazmyn: I’d rather do that in the ring wrestling than some sponsorship deal with a stupid car company or an endorsement deal with the hottest cosmetic trend of the time. I don’t mind the photoshoots, but that’s as far as I want to take that. I’m not someone that wants to be this corporate megastar because that’s not who I am. I’m not for sale to have my face and image sold around the world by corporate America who would only see dollar signs in me and not the person that I am at heart.
Camryn: That’s noble, Jazmyn and that’s something that we can definitely go forward with, but we can’t ignore the fans. We can’t just move past the fact that your fans have grown to love you so much that they want a piece of you. Now, you answer me this. Aside from merchandise NGW and GCW produce for you, do you even market yourself at all?
Jazmyn shakes her head.
Camryn: Do you even reach out to people? Do you even reach out to charitable causes trying to partner with them to fight for a cause that you strongly believe in?
Jazmyn: Honestly? No… not really.
Camryn: Jaz, I know you don’t realize this, so I am going to tell you right now. You can’t be in a bubble all the time. It’s not fair to your fans. I’m not saying you have to go out and be a pretty face for Maybelline or something ridiculous like that, but would it hurt you to reach out to people? Would it hurt to partner with a charitable cause? You have so much to offer besides what you do in the ring, Jazmyn. Don't you think that those that are inspired by you would want more of you in some form or another?
Jazmyn: Yes but…
Camryn: But nothing! Don’t hide anymore. Put yourself out there a little more. If you don’t want to deal with corporate America, but want to reach out to the fans that love you, you should think about writing a book about your wrestling career.
Jazmyn scoots away from Camryn slightly, indicating that she’s not quite down with the idea.
Jazmyn: I don’t know… that would seem selfish of me.
Camryn: How so?
Jazmyn: I mean… to put my life out there like that and take money from fans…
Camryn: No Jazmyn, what’s selfish of you is containing yourself in this bubble you’re in, keeping yourself from the fans. They want to know more about you, do they not? And who said that you have to keep the profits? I get that you’re not that type of person, Jazmyn and I understand those concerns. But those profits? You can do some GOOD with those. Think of a charitable cause that you are deeply passionate about, something that you can relate to that’s close to your heart that you want to fight for and bring greater awareness to.
Jazmyn: That’s an easy one: mental health. I can relate so much to those that are trying to cope and manage it because I KNOW that struggle like the back of my hand.
Camryn: Alright. So wouldn’t writing a book about your wrestling career and donating your profits to say, a mental health awareness organization actually fulfill your purpose of inspiring other people?
Jazmyn’s eyes widen, realizing the truth in Camryn’s question.
Jazmyn: And not doing such a thing… yeah, that would be selfish of me, wouldn’t it?
Camryn: Now you understand what I’m telling you. You’re meeting the demands of your passionate fans, you’re opening your heart to them, connecting with them, and you’re doing it for a tremendous cause. It’s a win for everyone, including you!
Jazmyn smiles and her eyes glisten, her heart now being touched with the idea of writing a book about her wrestling career as a way to inspire her fans as well as support mental health awareness.
Jazmyn: You’re right!
Camryn: So?
Jazmyn: I’m doing it, Cammie! I’m writing that book!
Camryn: Wonderful! I’ll try to secure those publishing rights. Yes, the publisher will take some cut… but of course, whatever profits are left over, you can donate those. As for the situation at hand… all I have to tell you is to talk to Devlin about it. But try to keep your cool and be as courteous as possible, okay?
Jazmyn smiles and nods, leading to the two of them standing up and giving each other a hug.
Jazmyn: Thanks, Cammie, you really helped me just now. I think I see the light at the end of the tunnel to manage this “stardom” that I have going on.
Camryn: Hey what are friends… and agents… for, right?
Jazmyn: I’m glad I hired you!
The two of them share a laugh.
Camryn: I’ll talk to you later. I need to get to work on those publishing rights.
The two nod at each other before Camryn leaves the locker room. Jazmyn is left alone, inspired by the events that just happened and happy with how the quandary of her reluctant stardom has just been resolved. Now that she’s out of her funk over the night before, Jazmyn Rain is determined to make things right. The fire within her heart to become NGW Five Lakes Champion has just been re-lit and now there is nothing, not a person or an event, that is going to keep her from becoming that Five Lakes Champion the “Guardian Angel” knows she can be.
