Post by Adrien | Adam on Jan 13, 2018 15:12:17 GMT -5
A million miles away
Your signal in the distance
To whom it may concern
I think I lost my way
Getting good at starting over
Every time that I return
Learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?
Learning to talk again
Can't you see I've waited long enough?
Where do I begin?
Do you remember the days
We built these paper mountains
Then sat and watched them burn?
I think I found my place
Can't you feel it growing stronger?
Little conquerors
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“I know people usually come on camera to speak about their upcoming matches. And I know the only other time I’ve done one of these was for an Unscripted show so the name of the blog might also be a bit confusing to some as the show I’m about to speak on is not Unscripted, but Crossroad: Ascension. But my match is still very much important for the Unscripted circles. The Long Beach Championship, after all, is defended every single Unscripted. Well, most of the time. There have been exceptions, such as the last one, when Shawn Young was actually in a tag team match against me. I think the higher-ups wanted to create more excitement for the match between me and Young for Crossroad: Ascension. It’s how I interpret the bookings anyway.
“I look at Shawn Young, and I see someone who is progressing the way I wanted to progress when I started doing this. I hate how envious I am of him. I shouldn’t be. I should be more worried about what I’m doing than what he’s doing. I should be listening to others when they tell me that everyone picks things up at different paces. I shouldn’t be comparing myself to him. But it’s hard not to, especially with how often our paths have crossed in the ring. Let’s ignore the nightmare of a career I had prior to West Coast Genesis and stick to just what’s happened in this company. Shawn has had eight matches. I’ve had nine. He’s won five and lost three. I’ve won three and lost six. Sure one of my three victories and his three losses were against each other the first time around, but he won the second match that had so much more on the line. He’s improving rapidly. So rapidly, it’s hard for me to follow. I don’t think the Shawn Young I faced in that first match is the same one I faced in last Unscripted’s tag team match. He’s much better now than he was then.
“Which makes me wonder what I’m doing here? I’m not shooting up the charts that fast. I’m not becoming a superstar before everyone’s eyes. I’m hanging in there and occasionally winning a match here and there. Which is better than what was going on before I came here, but regardless. It makes me curious though: why was I chosen to be in this match? What have I done to deserve being here? Izzy Roxx has a better win percentage. Tasmin Richards has a better win percentage and one hell of a pedigree. Remi hasn’t had an opportunity yet. Is this because I was able to counter one of his moves into one of my mentor’s former finishing moves once back in October?
“Adrien and Eddie had the same message for me when I shared these thoughts with them. For those of you who don’t know, Eddie Walker...the old guy with the spiked hair that hangs around a lot of shows and has a client list as big as the census at this point is my manager. And three-time World Heavyweight Champion and leader of the Guardians over in NGW, Adrien Cochrane, is the man who taught me and Kenzie Rydell what we know about wrestling, both in and out of the ring. But both of them told me that if I really believed that I didn’t belong in the match, it doesn’t matter. I’m in the match. It’s booked. It’s not my job to worry about who the higher-ups put me in a match. Adrien told me that you get into the ring with whoever they put you in the ring with and do what you can to come out of the match victorious.
“Another point they made was that if I can counter one of his moves into a finisher before, I could do it again. Adrien told me that the physics behind the move that I was able to counter last time didn’t change just because Shawn Young has won a lot of matches since then. I can still turn his weight into that direction and drop him on his head again, according to Adrien. And occasionally winning a match, he used that against my argument too. He asked: What’s stopping this from being the quote-unquote occasional win? With all the marbles on the line, championship belt looming over this bout, it only takes one win now.
“At least, that’s what he told me. Perhaps he’s right. Maybe I can do this. Maybe I can finally win my first ever championship. Maybe I can finally have something that validates my decision to get into this decision. I have to try my best, more so than any other match I’ve ever taken part in. I’ve been trying this crazy, possibly improbable career choice of mine for almost three years now. I’ve had my doubts if I made the right one. With one more victory tonight, I guess I can finally put those doubts to rest.
“But I can’t pretend like this is going to be easy. Sure, it’s just one more match I need to win. Just one. But as I’ve said before, Shawn Young is so gifted. So talented. And he fights harder than anyone else on this roster I’ve been in the ring with. He deserves to be champion. But I guess you could say he has had his turn and now it’s time for someone else. I’m the one they put in this match. I guess it could be me if I give this match everything I’ve got.
“I know Eddie believes in me. Adrien has an entire hashtag dedicated to it. His sister thinks I can do it. And even Izzy Roxx has thrown so much support in me somehow pulling this off. Even Ruby Lance and my own ex-girlfriend, Kenzie Rydell, said they want me to pull this off. So I guess the belief is in the air. As biased as they all are, anyway.
“I guess there’s only one way to find out if I can actually do this if I can make it so that I felt like I made the right decision stepping into the ring in the first. And that way is to go ahead, step into this ring, and see what happens. Shawn, I’m sure this will get to you. I respect you, no matter what happens. You’re going to be one of the biggest superstars of the future. I believe that. And just know that I’m going to give you every ounce I can give this match. Even if I don’t win, you deserve all the effort I can give you. Thank you for being a respectful opponent throughout this entire process. Good luck, though I think I need luck a lot more than you do.”
Learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?
Learning to talk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?
Now
For the very first time
Don't you pay no mind?
Set me free again
To keep alive a moment at a time
But still inside a whisper to a riot
To sacrifice but knowing to survive
The first to climb another state of mind
I'm on my knees, I'm praying for a sign
Forever, whenever
I never wanna die
I never wanna die
I never wanna die
I'm on my knees
I never wanna die
I'm dancing on my grave
I'm running through the fire
Forever, whenever
I never wanna die