Post by Alex Jones on Dec 23, 2017 2:04:49 GMT -5
“Why?...”
Alex sighs and looks down, his long hair hidden under a black baseball cap spun backwards. His deep brown eyes staring off into the distance with a blaze of anger and frustration behind them.
“You know, I try and see the good in everyone. I try and recognise the talent and drive. I look at someone like John Blade, a muscle headed idiot who can barely string a coherent sentence together and I talk about his heart and how he never gives up, about how he never complains. I talk about Matt Shields, a man who is a cheating, arrogant, delusional douchebag, but still talk about his title reign and how he got eyes on this company when it was known as redemption…”
“But when I sit here and listen to Alicia Hixx talk, I want to stick a large wooden stake into my ears…”
“For starters, Alicia, Honey...I’M A MALE...just incase the beard and chest hair wasn’t a dead giveaway. My name is ALEX not ALEXIS. John Blade your tag team partner, friend and...I dunno..are you two fucking?...please tell me you’re not, cause you two breeding would bring about the end of the world….”
“But John and I have faced each other in other companies AND NGW when it was Redemption, and he knows I’m male. So either, you’re trolling me which...I’d applaud or you really are this inept and fucking stupid…”
“I’m betting on the latter…”
Alex pauses for a moment and sighs leaning in close.
“That means the second one…”
“But this match shows a deeper issue here. See I told the world I was willing to earn my spot, I didn’t want to just jump to the head of the line and face Kayla Richards for the title or whoever ends up getting it. No I wanted to earn my place and in doing that I’ve been in great matches, main events, five star wars, the damn war match….I have done everything in my goddamn power to entertain fans and also show I am one of the best wrestlers on this planet. Hell I could bring up over and over again that in my first match the “unbeatable” Matt Shields ran from me like a scared puppy dog…”
“I could remind you all that I am still a world champion in another company…”
“I could throw it in your faces that I prove day in and day out that I am one of the best wrestlers on the planet today…”
“But, I wanted to earn it. And it went from me wanting to earn my spot to me seeing this place for what it really is. NGW wants to believe that is is the elite of the elite, that Matt Shields and the destroyers are world beaters and “the best”. Well, let me tell you all a little something about Matt Shields and his band of assholes. If I really wanted to, if I decided to play by their rules instead of the real rules I would run through them all like a hot knife through butter…”
Alex grits his teeth and shakes his head before angrily shoving a chair over across the room.
“When my ex wife and I split I made a promise to turn my life around. My personal and professional life. Gone was the arrogant self loathing asshole who would sell his own grandmother for a title shot, gone was the guy who would bend, push and in some cases completely break rules just to win. No the Alex Jones that came back to wrestling, who won the WWH world title, who won back the Honor championship, who destroyed Kevin Hunter and beat Alessandro Quaglieterre three times was a new beast….”
“See even Avery Miles has seen it. Avery Miles knew what I was like with Ana, he saw what I could do as the truly evil bastard I had become. But I turned my back on that life, on that person and I earned the respect of my peers. I earned Avery’s respect, I earned Adriens respect. Konrad Raab and Griffin Hawkins are two of my closest friends but when I was with Ana, when I was that evil, malevolent, uncaring prick they hated me…”
“Even Elena Dedraca and Alexandra Kelly...two women who I love with all my heart who are two of my best friends hated what I had become. But I came back….but what has it gotten me here?....”
“I sit there and watch as Kayla prances around with the NGW title like it’s an engagement ring. I watch Tillman and Shields, two guys who couldn’t beat me cleanly or without help hold the tag titles. I watch Coda, a woman with immeasurable talent turn a blind eye to the atrocities her “family” commits…”
“They get handed title shots and main events while I go about things the right way. I step in the ring, I have contests of skill and heart. I get fans chanting “this is awesome” and applauding both myself and my opponents. And what do I have to show for it?. A fucking match against Alicia Hixx. A match against someone who doesn’t even know what gender I am or what I’m capable of. nI like being in NGW, I like the company and I like the challenge it represents. But I can’t help but think, maybe...just maybe I should stop caring so much about doing things the “right” way...and maybe I should start thinking about what is right for me...for my wife...for our newborn son….”
“Maybe it’s time the old Alex comes back, that the childish notions of respect, honor and competition gets put aside for a reality. A reality where I go out to that ring and do whatever is necessary to not only get my career where it needs to be but also show the destroyers and the horsemen something that they honestly don’t want to believe. That despite their “us or them” mentallity, despite what tjhey believe themselves to be as far as “bad asses”...I’m so much more evil and unfeeling than they could ever hope to be….and when I’m done breaking Alicia Hixx...there won’t be an apology or remorse...the point will just be proved….”
