Post by Jazmyn Rain on Nov 26, 2017 22:50:48 GMT -5
Confronting Criticism
Date: November 26, 2017
Jazmyn Rain is now in Atlanta, Georgia just hours before Resurgence is going to begin. She doesn’t appear to be in a happy mood, but at the same time, she’s not looking dejected, angry or upset. She’s reflecting more on recent events and these recent events bring a smile out of her for a brief moment. The look on her face at this point indicates that of assertiveness and of validation of knowing that what she’s about to do is not only long overdue, but also something that she knows is going to be good for her in the long run as she progresses up the ladder in NGW and in professional wrestling in general. The two-time GCW Global Champion begins to address her critics, something that she knows she should have done a long time ago.
Jazmyn Rain: This one goes out to my critics.
Jazmyn pauses briefly to chuckle.
Jazmyn Rain: Whether you’re in NGW, GCW or anywhere I’ve ever been in this business, you’re going to get it from me. No, I’m not going to curse you all, I am not going to put you down, I am not going to complain about what’s happened to me at the hands of you all. No, I am going to do what is right for me, to finally vent how I feel about you all before I go into my match with Trixie tonight at Resurgence. I’m not one that likes to make the speeches like the one I’m about to make, but this is long overdue. So, this goes out to YOU… the promoter that yelled at me after my first professional wrestling match ever in Virginia and told me I would never amount to anything. This one goes out to YOU the promoter in my first mainstream promotion who thought it was funny to put me in an evening gown battle royal on a house show as my “initiation” to your company merely because you thought I was just a sex object. This address goes out to YOU, the best friend that backstabbed me by… pardon my rated R language… fucking my then-boyfriend behind my back and proceeded to hurt me in every way possible… YOU… the dispassionate, overbearing FRAUD that did nothing but belittle me, pick on my psychological and self-esteem related shortcomings of the times and essentially stole the Global Championship from me all while taking his ball and going home after his joke of a title reign.... YOU… the former champion that I regained that title from who wasn’t champion enough to acknowledge that when I regained my Global title, that I was the better wrestler and who moved on like nothing happened and like I never existed… and this goes out to YOU… the Destroyers…
I have two words to every single one of you that has ever criticized me, ever told me that I’d never make it in this business, ever told me that I can’t hack it in NGW, ever called me a charity case, ever told me that pouring my heart out the way that I was capable of doing so at the time meant that I didn’t deserve to ever be a global champion, ever snubbed me by whining on your Twitlonger being so petty as to never address me by name because you never wanted anything to do with me, and when the cameras are on… do anything it ever took to try to destroy me…
Two words…
YOU LOST!!!!
Jazmyn pauses and now a slightly angry, yet still determined expression appears on her face as she continues.
Jazmyn Rain: For everything each and every one of you have ever said to me or done to me, for everything you put me through during your egotistical, or egomaniacal or passive-aggressive episodes ranging from ignorance to downright “burial” as some would say in this business… YOU LOST! Sure, you have bruised me. Sure, you have shattered my spirit. Sure, you have beaten me down, made me question my own worth, bruised my heart, taken advantage of my weaknesses and did everything you could to drive me out of professional wrestling and maybe after that Global title was robbed from me in the fashion that it was, I SHOULD have called it quits.
But I DIDN’T!
I not only stayed to fight my personal demons, I SLAYED those demons. Despite certain people in GCW that never wanted me to be Global Champion at ALL, let alone being Global Champion again, that’s exactly what I did. Words have hurt me and stung me, actions have broken me and bruised me and people have knocked me down and yet, through ALL of that, I STILL stood up and I STILL kept fighting, you know why? Because like Buffy Summers once said…. STRONG is FIGHTING and that’s what I do every single day whether I fight matches like the one I am going to fight tonight, or whether I fight my personal weaknesses and shortcomings. I’m NOT perfect, I know this. I err, I slip, I fall, I do and say things I regret at a later time, sometimes I even overdramatize a situation, I admit this, but my imperfections make me a person that I can look in the mirror and smile at every single day before I remind her day in and day out what a wonderful, beautiful human being she is… which is more than I can say for all of you put together.
And that bothers the HELL out of all of you, doesn’t it?
You never wanted me to rise up from my own ashes and become a world champion again. You don’t want me to win my match with Trixie tonight. You want me to fail in NGW. Why? I’ll tell you why. Because every time I succeed, it makes you all sick to your stomach, doesn’t it? Every time I go out there and prove you wrong, you can’t stand it so you either dismiss it as a fluke, or you just pretend it never happens. Every time I step into that wrestling ring, either in NGW or GCW, it doesn’t even matter if I won or lose between the bells, just BEING there is a LOSS for all of you. I used to fear you, but now? I don’t. I may still take things to heart here and there, but that’s not going to stop me from going out there and doing everything that I set out to do in this business, like tonight, for example. Is it going to stop me from beating Trixie and becoming the NGW Five Lakes Championship number one contender? NO! It won’t!
Gosh, just the thought of that makes you sick doesn’t it?
Jazmyn pauses to chuckle for a bit, before winking toward the camera.
Jazmyn Rain: It’s human nature to hate you all, but I can’t because it would make me no better than you. Hate never wins. I used to fight you all with hate of my own, but all that did was drive me into the ground worse than any of you ever could. So no… I won’t hate you. Hell, I won’t even pity you. I will forgive you for every wrong you have ever committed against me, regardless of who you are. I will wish you all the best. Hell, I can’t even hate the Destroyers, as much as I can’t stand what they’re all about. I can’t hate Matt Shields for his actions against me two weeks ago and I can’t even hate Jack Tillman for what he did to me at Convergence. Hate is an empty feeling, one that I try never to experience again. If you want to hate me, hate me. At the end of the day, you’re the one with the problem, not me. It is what it is. I can’t do anything to change your opinion of me, so it’s no use worrying about it. I am who I am, I’m proud of who I am, and if you love me, awesome. If you hate me, okay. God bless your heart. Of course, it should be quite obvious, Trixie, that despite philosophical differences, I could never hate you.
But you? While you’re not one of those critics, I get this sense of hatred within you. The “list” certainly consisted of some veiled hatred in my view. You can talk about Tillman getting his way in NGW, and hey, it does seem like that’s a common thing, does it not? You can talk about wanting to superkick me or anyone that gets in your way, you can complain about how the Destroyers don’t get enough consequences handed to them, you can talk about wanting to make Tillman say sorry while you make him tap out, talk about how you want to shove me out of the way to get to where you want to be, but all I hear, Trixie, is scorn, criticism and hatred. You have every right to vent your criticisms, but how is that going to help you against me? Are you even FOCUSED on me, or are you focused on all the things around you that you don’t like, such as everything I just listed off and then some.
Tonight, I suppose we will find out our answer, but I want you to take a lesson from this, Trixie. I’m not focusing my energies on the wrong things, YOU are. As long as you continue to have such scorn, you’re going to have a difficult time getting to where you want to be. This shouldn’t be about superkicking people along the way or by forcing someone to apologize in an armbar. Such heat won’t make you a champion. No, to win this match, you’ve got to do it with love: love for this company, love for this business, love for the fans, and most importantly, love for yourself because without that, you can’t get anywhere. I hate to sound sappy, but my love for what I do is what drives me, first and foremost. Yes, I err and occasionally get clouded by things to the point where I lose my focus, but I can never, and will never, forget who I am at my core. I hate that you’ve got to be made an example of in a way, as far as my confrontation of my critics are concerned, but again, that’s the way this business goes at times.
So to all my critics, keep your eye on me tonight.
Because once again, you lose.
And you have burdened me for the last time with your empty words and passive-aggressive fronting!
As for you, Trixie… you may be in that prime position one day, but not tonight… not while MY prime is only beginning!
Jazmyn takes a deep breath and smiles, obviously feeling so much better after getting some much needed words off of her chest. She shuts off the camera and starts to make her final preparations for Resurgence tonight, confident in her chances of victory on this night and any other night ahead.
Date: November 26, 2017
Jazmyn Rain is now in Atlanta, Georgia just hours before Resurgence is going to begin. She doesn’t appear to be in a happy mood, but at the same time, she’s not looking dejected, angry or upset. She’s reflecting more on recent events and these recent events bring a smile out of her for a brief moment. The look on her face at this point indicates that of assertiveness and of validation of knowing that what she’s about to do is not only long overdue, but also something that she knows is going to be good for her in the long run as she progresses up the ladder in NGW and in professional wrestling in general. The two-time GCW Global Champion begins to address her critics, something that she knows she should have done a long time ago.
Jazmyn Rain: This one goes out to my critics.
Jazmyn pauses briefly to chuckle.
Jazmyn Rain: Whether you’re in NGW, GCW or anywhere I’ve ever been in this business, you’re going to get it from me. No, I’m not going to curse you all, I am not going to put you down, I am not going to complain about what’s happened to me at the hands of you all. No, I am going to do what is right for me, to finally vent how I feel about you all before I go into my match with Trixie tonight at Resurgence. I’m not one that likes to make the speeches like the one I’m about to make, but this is long overdue. So, this goes out to YOU… the promoter that yelled at me after my first professional wrestling match ever in Virginia and told me I would never amount to anything. This one goes out to YOU the promoter in my first mainstream promotion who thought it was funny to put me in an evening gown battle royal on a house show as my “initiation” to your company merely because you thought I was just a sex object. This address goes out to YOU, the best friend that backstabbed me by… pardon my rated R language… fucking my then-boyfriend behind my back and proceeded to hurt me in every way possible… YOU… the dispassionate, overbearing FRAUD that did nothing but belittle me, pick on my psychological and self-esteem related shortcomings of the times and essentially stole the Global Championship from me all while taking his ball and going home after his joke of a title reign.... YOU… the former champion that I regained that title from who wasn’t champion enough to acknowledge that when I regained my Global title, that I was the better wrestler and who moved on like nothing happened and like I never existed… and this goes out to YOU… the Destroyers…
I have two words to every single one of you that has ever criticized me, ever told me that I’d never make it in this business, ever told me that I can’t hack it in NGW, ever called me a charity case, ever told me that pouring my heart out the way that I was capable of doing so at the time meant that I didn’t deserve to ever be a global champion, ever snubbed me by whining on your Twitlonger being so petty as to never address me by name because you never wanted anything to do with me, and when the cameras are on… do anything it ever took to try to destroy me…
Two words…
YOU LOST!!!!
Jazmyn pauses and now a slightly angry, yet still determined expression appears on her face as she continues.
Jazmyn Rain: For everything each and every one of you have ever said to me or done to me, for everything you put me through during your egotistical, or egomaniacal or passive-aggressive episodes ranging from ignorance to downright “burial” as some would say in this business… YOU LOST! Sure, you have bruised me. Sure, you have shattered my spirit. Sure, you have beaten me down, made me question my own worth, bruised my heart, taken advantage of my weaknesses and did everything you could to drive me out of professional wrestling and maybe after that Global title was robbed from me in the fashion that it was, I SHOULD have called it quits.
But I DIDN’T!
I not only stayed to fight my personal demons, I SLAYED those demons. Despite certain people in GCW that never wanted me to be Global Champion at ALL, let alone being Global Champion again, that’s exactly what I did. Words have hurt me and stung me, actions have broken me and bruised me and people have knocked me down and yet, through ALL of that, I STILL stood up and I STILL kept fighting, you know why? Because like Buffy Summers once said…. STRONG is FIGHTING and that’s what I do every single day whether I fight matches like the one I am going to fight tonight, or whether I fight my personal weaknesses and shortcomings. I’m NOT perfect, I know this. I err, I slip, I fall, I do and say things I regret at a later time, sometimes I even overdramatize a situation, I admit this, but my imperfections make me a person that I can look in the mirror and smile at every single day before I remind her day in and day out what a wonderful, beautiful human being she is… which is more than I can say for all of you put together.
And that bothers the HELL out of all of you, doesn’t it?
You never wanted me to rise up from my own ashes and become a world champion again. You don’t want me to win my match with Trixie tonight. You want me to fail in NGW. Why? I’ll tell you why. Because every time I succeed, it makes you all sick to your stomach, doesn’t it? Every time I go out there and prove you wrong, you can’t stand it so you either dismiss it as a fluke, or you just pretend it never happens. Every time I step into that wrestling ring, either in NGW or GCW, it doesn’t even matter if I won or lose between the bells, just BEING there is a LOSS for all of you. I used to fear you, but now? I don’t. I may still take things to heart here and there, but that’s not going to stop me from going out there and doing everything that I set out to do in this business, like tonight, for example. Is it going to stop me from beating Trixie and becoming the NGW Five Lakes Championship number one contender? NO! It won’t!
Gosh, just the thought of that makes you sick doesn’t it?
Jazmyn pauses to chuckle for a bit, before winking toward the camera.
Jazmyn Rain: It’s human nature to hate you all, but I can’t because it would make me no better than you. Hate never wins. I used to fight you all with hate of my own, but all that did was drive me into the ground worse than any of you ever could. So no… I won’t hate you. Hell, I won’t even pity you. I will forgive you for every wrong you have ever committed against me, regardless of who you are. I will wish you all the best. Hell, I can’t even hate the Destroyers, as much as I can’t stand what they’re all about. I can’t hate Matt Shields for his actions against me two weeks ago and I can’t even hate Jack Tillman for what he did to me at Convergence. Hate is an empty feeling, one that I try never to experience again. If you want to hate me, hate me. At the end of the day, you’re the one with the problem, not me. It is what it is. I can’t do anything to change your opinion of me, so it’s no use worrying about it. I am who I am, I’m proud of who I am, and if you love me, awesome. If you hate me, okay. God bless your heart. Of course, it should be quite obvious, Trixie, that despite philosophical differences, I could never hate you.
But you? While you’re not one of those critics, I get this sense of hatred within you. The “list” certainly consisted of some veiled hatred in my view. You can talk about Tillman getting his way in NGW, and hey, it does seem like that’s a common thing, does it not? You can talk about wanting to superkick me or anyone that gets in your way, you can complain about how the Destroyers don’t get enough consequences handed to them, you can talk about wanting to make Tillman say sorry while you make him tap out, talk about how you want to shove me out of the way to get to where you want to be, but all I hear, Trixie, is scorn, criticism and hatred. You have every right to vent your criticisms, but how is that going to help you against me? Are you even FOCUSED on me, or are you focused on all the things around you that you don’t like, such as everything I just listed off and then some.
Tonight, I suppose we will find out our answer, but I want you to take a lesson from this, Trixie. I’m not focusing my energies on the wrong things, YOU are. As long as you continue to have such scorn, you’re going to have a difficult time getting to where you want to be. This shouldn’t be about superkicking people along the way or by forcing someone to apologize in an armbar. Such heat won’t make you a champion. No, to win this match, you’ve got to do it with love: love for this company, love for this business, love for the fans, and most importantly, love for yourself because without that, you can’t get anywhere. I hate to sound sappy, but my love for what I do is what drives me, first and foremost. Yes, I err and occasionally get clouded by things to the point where I lose my focus, but I can never, and will never, forget who I am at my core. I hate that you’ve got to be made an example of in a way, as far as my confrontation of my critics are concerned, but again, that’s the way this business goes at times.
So to all my critics, keep your eye on me tonight.
Because once again, you lose.
And you have burdened me for the last time with your empty words and passive-aggressive fronting!
As for you, Trixie… you may be in that prime position one day, but not tonight… not while MY prime is only beginning!
Jazmyn takes a deep breath and smiles, obviously feeling so much better after getting some much needed words off of her chest. She shuts off the camera and starts to make her final preparations for Resurgence tonight, confident in her chances of victory on this night and any other night ahead.
