Post by Jazmyn Rain on Oct 29, 2017 2:52:30 GMT -5
Overcoming The Negative
Date: October 20, 2017
Jazmyn Rain is in Georgia at the moment, having dressed back into her street clothes after competing at the Avery & Serenity Miles Benefit earlier in the night. The show though, has now come and gone and Jazmyn is inside what is now an empty building watching the ring crew disassemble the ring and begin to work on the lights. While the lights are still on, they’re dim though this doesn’t obscure any sight of the Charlotte native. Jazmyn, thinking about the event as well as a lot of the negative she has had to deal with in NGW in recent times, takes in the atmosphere of the moment. It’s definitely a positive and inspiring one, something that she admittedly needs at the moment as she begins to express her thoughts.
Jazmyn Rain: I am going to start off by being candid and honest and in no way am I expressing any doubt, though I admit I have certainly had feelings of it in light of recent events. These recent events? Well, let’s rewind to St. Louis when I had a little run in with the Destroyers during Adrien’s and I’s tag team match. Not exactly the worst thing in the world, I admit, when you consider the sacrifice Adrien made that I will always appreciate, but yeah, I really have piled up the bad wrestling memories in St. Louis. And then you have what happened at Dissension in San Francisco. Don’t get me wrong, the C2 Con was AMAZING and it was definitely a sight to behold, especially when I got to experience it for myself on my autograph day. It was definitely a good week, that is, until Dissension itself happened.
Jazmyn pauses and sighs, looking down at her feet for a couple of brief moments before looking back at the camera. She’s showing a clear sign of dejection, indicating that as of when this promo was taped, the events she dealt with in San Francisco were still bothering her to some degree. She has a pout for a split second that further drives this home before she resumes.
Jazmyn Rain: I was all set to open the night, taking on Trixie in an all-Prime Angels showdown to determine the number one contender to the Five Lakes Championship. Deep in my heart of hearts, I knew that if I could get past Trixie, I was going to get past the Jew Blazer, avenge my hometown debut, and become the Five Lakes Champion. It would have been damn near perfect if you ask me had I been able to pull that off. But as you can see, I am not the NGW Five Lakes Champion because I never even got the chance to compete for that title all because of Jack Tillman… a member of the Destroyers. Sure enough, Trixie, clearly prepared to face me and not Jack, couldn’t beat him and when it was all said and done, when the smoke cleared and the night was over, my absolute worst nightmare happened. Jack Tillman is the NGW Five Lakes Champion now and in some way, I feel responsible. What if I wasn’t at the wrong place at the wrong time? It’s a dreadful feeling, having an opportunity like that robbed from you before you ever got the chance to have it and I admit that as strong as my spirit has become, there’s still that one trigger that can cause me to doubt myself on occasion and Jack’s actions pulled that trigger.
You all saw how angry I was, and I once again apologize for the way I reacted to it all before the show went off the air. I’ve calmed down, but I can’t help but still have that sick, empty feeling in the back of my stomach. Knowing that the Destroyers have THREE championships now is something that makes my skin crawl. Now, I’ve faced some evils before, don’t get me wrong. But never one that was to the point of having THAT much dominance over the championships. So the question I’ve been asking myself so much these days is… what now?
Jazmyn’s eyes tell the story of someone who is uncertain of things at this present moment.
Jazmyn Rain: How do I overcome all this recent negativity that I’ve been surrounded by in NGW? How do I overcome all the negativity from critics like Richard Kelly? Has NGW been dream land for me? No. But that’s what I expected. I knew coming in here that things weren’t going to be easy. But I also didn’t know exactly how tough it was going to be and I’ll be honest, these recent events are really testing my mettle. Critics have been pointing out how two of my three wins in NGW are over people like DeSean Walker and John Blade while my other win, that over Caroline O’Hara Burchill, suddenly doesn’t seem all that impressive anymore after she lost to Alicia Hixx of all people… clearly ignoring the fact that a wrestler having a really bad day can lose to a wrestler having a really good day at any given moment regardless of skill level. Ninety nine times out of a hundred, Caroline beats Alicia. Is that my fault that Dissension happened to be the one in one hundred chance Alicia got to cash in on? Anyway, back to the negativity. Critics seem to love throwing my debut loss in my face don’t they?
Oh and this whole thing about me not having NGW merchandise… for some reason…
So I admit, when I saw the card for this upcoming Dissension, I do have to admit I was a little upset. It’s nothing against Ruby Rose at all, of course. It’s just that I know I am not an opening match wrestler. Granted, I live by the mantra of making your impact no matter where on the show you wrestle, but still. It frustrated me because I go from possibly challenging for the Five Lakes title to facing a newcomer from WCG? I wasn’t in a good place for a few days, honestly. But then I came here…
Jazmyn takes another pause to look around the building of the charity benefit, further soaking in the atmosphere.
Jazmyn Rain: This charity event for the victims of such horrible tragedies, natural and otherwise, woke me up. Yes, my opponent tonight was a local girl, but then it had me really putting things into perspective. I realized that I was thinking too negative about myself and putting too much pressure on myself. I realized that I was growing angry and bitter over things that I shouldn’t have had hard feelings toward. Then that’s when I realized that every moment you have in this business is precious and should not be wasted by negativity. So, it’s hit me now. I know how I am going to overcome what I’ve been going through. I know how I am going to silence the negative voices and ultimately become the NGW Five Lakes Champion. I’ve got to quit overcomplicating things and have some damn confidence in myself. I NEED to transfer the confidence I have in me in GCW, to that NGW ring. All I need to do, is something that I know how to do very well and that’s WIN. I’m not focused on my loftier goals like the Five Lakes title or eradicating the concept of the Destroyers going into Chicago. I’m focused on one thing and one thing only and that’s beating Ruby Rose in quite the ironic full circle scenario.
Ruby, being the WCG South Bay Champion, is coming onto the NGW roster with a hell of a lot of hype and with such hype draws some overwhelming negativity from people in the WCG locker room, something that I can relate to considering that when I was GCW Global Champion, all I ever got was hatred and scorn. You know who recently came onto the NGW roster with a pretty damn fair bit of hype? Yours truly. When I faced the Jew Blazer in my debut, he was someone with something to prove. He had a shot at the then-Redemption New Generation Championship and his opportunity was robbed from him by Caroline and her nefarious ways. Now? I’M the one in the same spot. I’m the one that has something to prove. I had a shot at that very same championship robbed from me by Jack Tillman and HIS nefarious ways. It’s a role reversal and that being said, this match is a must win for me, yes, that’s how I am treating this against Ruby. She may have a bright future ahead of her and she may have quite the skill for someone her age, and hey, I respect her for dealing with the constant, nagging negativity that she does, but at the end of the day, I look at the landscape, I look at the big picture and I know that it’s time for me to step up now! Facing a local talent tonight at this charity event helped me realize that I shouldn’t take this match for granted, no matter what.
This event… considering the purpose of it… it helped remind me of why I do this and what I am all about. It reminded me that there are far more important things to focus on than anger toward being robbed of an opportunity you were hungry to have. Come hell or high water, I WILL fight back and I WILL keep climbing and starting with you, Ruby, I am not going to be denied until I have that Five Lakes Championship in my hands. It’s nothing personal against you, and I honestly hate the timing of it considering this is your big NGW debut and all, but I am on a mission to right that wrong that happened in San Francisco and I will take on and overcome anyone to prove myself here in NGW and be that Five Lakes Champion I wanted to be from the moment that I came here. Talented as you may be, you have a lot to learn and ironically, you’re the perfect test for me when it comes to working on a weakness of mine… something that I have to get better at and that thing is blocking out noise.
Noise like criticisms from Richard Kelly, Julianna DiMaria and the constant nonsense I deal with from a select few people in GCW, noise like the one in my head that occasionally tells me that I’ve yet to prove anything in NGW, and noise like… with all due respect, the hype that surrounds you.
Jazmyn pauses, taking a deep breath and keeping herself composed before she continues.
Jazmyn Rain: I’m not blind to it. I know that it’s not your own doing and I know it’s terrible that you have to take the brunt of it from all the negative people in the WCG locker room, but that doesn’t take away the fact that it’s there and that I am not going to listen to it. I am going to treat you just like I would treat anyone else. In order for me to win this match and overcome the negative I’ve had to deal with in NGW lately, I have to turn that noise off. I have to not listen to my critics, I have to not listen to those people that prop you up like the best thing since sliced bread. It all goes back to what I was saying earlier of not putting pressure on myself. I need to focus on one thing, and one thing only: beating you. It’ll be a great match, no question about that. You’re going to be a tough cookie, I won’t deny that a bit. But at the end of the day, I’ve got more to prove. I’ve got more to fight for. I’m the one that needs to really get myself going. I wish it wasn’t against you, I admit that, but that’s the way this business goes sometimes. Starting with you, I am going to start proving that I AM capable of being a champion that NGW can be proud of.
Time for this angel to start flying again… especially for the people I fought for tonight that truly need that guiding light to get through their trying times!
Jazmyn takes a deep and confident breath, indicating that at the very least, she’s coming back from the doldrums she’s been in since the last Dissension in San Francisco. With that, she soaks in the soothing atmosphere of the charity benefit show in Georgia, absorbing every reminder she can have about who and what she fights for before the cameras are turned off for now.
Date: October 20, 2017
Jazmyn Rain is in Georgia at the moment, having dressed back into her street clothes after competing at the Avery & Serenity Miles Benefit earlier in the night. The show though, has now come and gone and Jazmyn is inside what is now an empty building watching the ring crew disassemble the ring and begin to work on the lights. While the lights are still on, they’re dim though this doesn’t obscure any sight of the Charlotte native. Jazmyn, thinking about the event as well as a lot of the negative she has had to deal with in NGW in recent times, takes in the atmosphere of the moment. It’s definitely a positive and inspiring one, something that she admittedly needs at the moment as she begins to express her thoughts.
Jazmyn Rain: I am going to start off by being candid and honest and in no way am I expressing any doubt, though I admit I have certainly had feelings of it in light of recent events. These recent events? Well, let’s rewind to St. Louis when I had a little run in with the Destroyers during Adrien’s and I’s tag team match. Not exactly the worst thing in the world, I admit, when you consider the sacrifice Adrien made that I will always appreciate, but yeah, I really have piled up the bad wrestling memories in St. Louis. And then you have what happened at Dissension in San Francisco. Don’t get me wrong, the C2 Con was AMAZING and it was definitely a sight to behold, especially when I got to experience it for myself on my autograph day. It was definitely a good week, that is, until Dissension itself happened.
Jazmyn pauses and sighs, looking down at her feet for a couple of brief moments before looking back at the camera. She’s showing a clear sign of dejection, indicating that as of when this promo was taped, the events she dealt with in San Francisco were still bothering her to some degree. She has a pout for a split second that further drives this home before she resumes.
Jazmyn Rain: I was all set to open the night, taking on Trixie in an all-Prime Angels showdown to determine the number one contender to the Five Lakes Championship. Deep in my heart of hearts, I knew that if I could get past Trixie, I was going to get past the Jew Blazer, avenge my hometown debut, and become the Five Lakes Champion. It would have been damn near perfect if you ask me had I been able to pull that off. But as you can see, I am not the NGW Five Lakes Champion because I never even got the chance to compete for that title all because of Jack Tillman… a member of the Destroyers. Sure enough, Trixie, clearly prepared to face me and not Jack, couldn’t beat him and when it was all said and done, when the smoke cleared and the night was over, my absolute worst nightmare happened. Jack Tillman is the NGW Five Lakes Champion now and in some way, I feel responsible. What if I wasn’t at the wrong place at the wrong time? It’s a dreadful feeling, having an opportunity like that robbed from you before you ever got the chance to have it and I admit that as strong as my spirit has become, there’s still that one trigger that can cause me to doubt myself on occasion and Jack’s actions pulled that trigger.
You all saw how angry I was, and I once again apologize for the way I reacted to it all before the show went off the air. I’ve calmed down, but I can’t help but still have that sick, empty feeling in the back of my stomach. Knowing that the Destroyers have THREE championships now is something that makes my skin crawl. Now, I’ve faced some evils before, don’t get me wrong. But never one that was to the point of having THAT much dominance over the championships. So the question I’ve been asking myself so much these days is… what now?
Jazmyn’s eyes tell the story of someone who is uncertain of things at this present moment.
Jazmyn Rain: How do I overcome all this recent negativity that I’ve been surrounded by in NGW? How do I overcome all the negativity from critics like Richard Kelly? Has NGW been dream land for me? No. But that’s what I expected. I knew coming in here that things weren’t going to be easy. But I also didn’t know exactly how tough it was going to be and I’ll be honest, these recent events are really testing my mettle. Critics have been pointing out how two of my three wins in NGW are over people like DeSean Walker and John Blade while my other win, that over Caroline O’Hara Burchill, suddenly doesn’t seem all that impressive anymore after she lost to Alicia Hixx of all people… clearly ignoring the fact that a wrestler having a really bad day can lose to a wrestler having a really good day at any given moment regardless of skill level. Ninety nine times out of a hundred, Caroline beats Alicia. Is that my fault that Dissension happened to be the one in one hundred chance Alicia got to cash in on? Anyway, back to the negativity. Critics seem to love throwing my debut loss in my face don’t they?
Oh and this whole thing about me not having NGW merchandise… for some reason…
So I admit, when I saw the card for this upcoming Dissension, I do have to admit I was a little upset. It’s nothing against Ruby Rose at all, of course. It’s just that I know I am not an opening match wrestler. Granted, I live by the mantra of making your impact no matter where on the show you wrestle, but still. It frustrated me because I go from possibly challenging for the Five Lakes title to facing a newcomer from WCG? I wasn’t in a good place for a few days, honestly. But then I came here…
Jazmyn takes another pause to look around the building of the charity benefit, further soaking in the atmosphere.
Jazmyn Rain: This charity event for the victims of such horrible tragedies, natural and otherwise, woke me up. Yes, my opponent tonight was a local girl, but then it had me really putting things into perspective. I realized that I was thinking too negative about myself and putting too much pressure on myself. I realized that I was growing angry and bitter over things that I shouldn’t have had hard feelings toward. Then that’s when I realized that every moment you have in this business is precious and should not be wasted by negativity. So, it’s hit me now. I know how I am going to overcome what I’ve been going through. I know how I am going to silence the negative voices and ultimately become the NGW Five Lakes Champion. I’ve got to quit overcomplicating things and have some damn confidence in myself. I NEED to transfer the confidence I have in me in GCW, to that NGW ring. All I need to do, is something that I know how to do very well and that’s WIN. I’m not focused on my loftier goals like the Five Lakes title or eradicating the concept of the Destroyers going into Chicago. I’m focused on one thing and one thing only and that’s beating Ruby Rose in quite the ironic full circle scenario.
Ruby, being the WCG South Bay Champion, is coming onto the NGW roster with a hell of a lot of hype and with such hype draws some overwhelming negativity from people in the WCG locker room, something that I can relate to considering that when I was GCW Global Champion, all I ever got was hatred and scorn. You know who recently came onto the NGW roster with a pretty damn fair bit of hype? Yours truly. When I faced the Jew Blazer in my debut, he was someone with something to prove. He had a shot at the then-Redemption New Generation Championship and his opportunity was robbed from him by Caroline and her nefarious ways. Now? I’M the one in the same spot. I’m the one that has something to prove. I had a shot at that very same championship robbed from me by Jack Tillman and HIS nefarious ways. It’s a role reversal and that being said, this match is a must win for me, yes, that’s how I am treating this against Ruby. She may have a bright future ahead of her and she may have quite the skill for someone her age, and hey, I respect her for dealing with the constant, nagging negativity that she does, but at the end of the day, I look at the landscape, I look at the big picture and I know that it’s time for me to step up now! Facing a local talent tonight at this charity event helped me realize that I shouldn’t take this match for granted, no matter what.
This event… considering the purpose of it… it helped remind me of why I do this and what I am all about. It reminded me that there are far more important things to focus on than anger toward being robbed of an opportunity you were hungry to have. Come hell or high water, I WILL fight back and I WILL keep climbing and starting with you, Ruby, I am not going to be denied until I have that Five Lakes Championship in my hands. It’s nothing personal against you, and I honestly hate the timing of it considering this is your big NGW debut and all, but I am on a mission to right that wrong that happened in San Francisco and I will take on and overcome anyone to prove myself here in NGW and be that Five Lakes Champion I wanted to be from the moment that I came here. Talented as you may be, you have a lot to learn and ironically, you’re the perfect test for me when it comes to working on a weakness of mine… something that I have to get better at and that thing is blocking out noise.
Noise like criticisms from Richard Kelly, Julianna DiMaria and the constant nonsense I deal with from a select few people in GCW, noise like the one in my head that occasionally tells me that I’ve yet to prove anything in NGW, and noise like… with all due respect, the hype that surrounds you.
Jazmyn pauses, taking a deep breath and keeping herself composed before she continues.
Jazmyn Rain: I’m not blind to it. I know that it’s not your own doing and I know it’s terrible that you have to take the brunt of it from all the negative people in the WCG locker room, but that doesn’t take away the fact that it’s there and that I am not going to listen to it. I am going to treat you just like I would treat anyone else. In order for me to win this match and overcome the negative I’ve had to deal with in NGW lately, I have to turn that noise off. I have to not listen to my critics, I have to not listen to those people that prop you up like the best thing since sliced bread. It all goes back to what I was saying earlier of not putting pressure on myself. I need to focus on one thing, and one thing only: beating you. It’ll be a great match, no question about that. You’re going to be a tough cookie, I won’t deny that a bit. But at the end of the day, I’ve got more to prove. I’ve got more to fight for. I’m the one that needs to really get myself going. I wish it wasn’t against you, I admit that, but that’s the way this business goes sometimes. Starting with you, I am going to start proving that I AM capable of being a champion that NGW can be proud of.
Time for this angel to start flying again… especially for the people I fought for tonight that truly need that guiding light to get through their trying times!
Jazmyn takes a deep and confident breath, indicating that at the very least, she’s coming back from the doldrums she’s been in since the last Dissension in San Francisco. With that, she soaks in the soothing atmosphere of the charity benefit show in Georgia, absorbing every reminder she can have about who and what she fights for before the cameras are turned off for now.
