Post by Jazmyn Rain on Oct 28, 2017 17:40:10 GMT -5
“Robbed”
Opening Thoughts
Jazmyn Rain: How many chapters of sorrow have I endured in my wrestling career? It seems like it’s been countless. I’ve had my moments of glory, but I am not going to lie to you. On occasion, it irks me that these moments of glory have a heaping gap between them all. I haven’t held a championship of any kind in nineteen and a half months while some of my contemporaries and friends win World Championships like it’s no big deal. I’m occasionally irked by the fact that in my entire career, dating back to 2011, I’ve held only five championships overall. That’s five titles in six years, with three being singles titles. That’s not… well… great. Okay, so I was gone from wrestling for two of those years but five titles period in just four years doesn’t sound THAT much better…
Yeah, I think now you guys know why I don’t, and can’t really, consider myself a star in this business. With what I just described, how can I ever feel like one? What happened at the C2 Con with Dissension was another one of these chapters of sorrows that delayed a moment of glory. I was so confident going in that I was going to beat Trixie and Jew Blazer in the same night to be the Five Lakes Champion, but of course, as the story appears to go with my career sometimes, there’s ALWAYS that unforeseen circumstance that gets in the way.
This time? It was Jack Tillman of the Destroyers and now HE’S the Five Lakes Champion. Believe me, it’s a guilty feeling knowing that it was something that could have been prevented and now, we have ourselves a worst-case scenario as far as the championship is concerned. A Destroyer holds it now… and now it’s my job to fix that. But how?
I never got my chance against Trixie.
Before then, it’s not like I was THAT close to being in title contendership. And worse yet, my biggest win to date in Caroline O’Hara Burchill lost to ALICIA HIXX, she of one of the worst win percentages in NGW at the moment, so that kind of puts a dent in things a little more.
Either way, in light of what took place at Dissension, I’ve been hit with the realization that I seemingly have a longer way to go than I thought. Where do I go from here? Lord only knows. I was robbed at Dissension in a cruel and callous fashion. But it’s onto the next…
I’ve got a WCG call up coming in HER debut match in Chicago…
Date: October 9, 2017
On the morning after Dissension, Jazmyn Rain sits down at a park in the middle of a morning walk in San Francisco. She’s definitely out of her element as her mood is largely melancholy. The events of the night before only trigger some bad memories from earlier in her career when she was far from the wrestler and the woman that she is now. Jazmyn knows the drill, being a psychology major back at Florida State. She does realize that the events of the night before triggered something psychologically in her that temporarily put her back in a dark place, if only for a few moments, during her interview with Hannah Lacey where she lost her cool. It’s this brief event that is causing her the most grief as guilt from that moment of anger is sweeping her.
Jazmyn: That’s not me… that’s not me…
Jazmyn says this to herself, then repeats it in her mind as she copes with the guilt she’s experiencing from that moment of anger. She looks down, trying her best not to feel sorry for herself. She hasn’t exactly snapped out of that darker place she’d be in on a constant basis as recent as even 14 months ago so the struggle to deal with being a victim of Jack Tillman’s nonsense is more real than what anyone can imagine.
Jazmyn: Another cruel chapter of sorrow…
Voice: Does it really need to be?
Jazmyn looks up and sees her college best friend Camryn Rourke standing above her. Her eyes widen as she sits down next to her.
Jazmyn: Cammie… I didn’t know you were going to be here.
Camryn: Your dad’s undergoing surgery for his colon cancer, right? I figured you were going to have a hard time with that but… yeah, I see that last night just piled on, huh?
Jazmyn: Yeah…
Jazmyn signs.
Jazmyn: Do I need to explain what happened?
Camryn: No, I saw. You had a moment. I don’t blame you. But the last time we spoke, you know… I was concerned about this sort of thing… how you’d react if something like last night happened to you…
Jazmyn: Cammie, not now….
Jazmyn turns away from her friend, but Camryn grabs her hand trying to show some solidarity with her.
Camryn: Jazmyn, you’re not in a good place right now. I understand what’s going on with your dad is part of it, but every time something like this happens to you in wrestling, you don’t handle it all that well.
Jazmyn: That’s in the past…
Camryn: Flipping over a television set after Jack Tillman won the Five Lakes title isn’t exactly “in the past” since it’s quite similar to how you’d normally take stuff like that.
Jazmyn sighs again, this time, with a tone of annoyance.
Camryn: Can you look at me for a second?
Jazmyn reluctantly turns to Camryn and immediately looks in her eyes. Her own eyes widen in surprise when she sees the deep pools of concern that are in the eyes of her friend.
Camryn: It’s always like this whenever something involves a championship. You got stripped of both of your tag team titles you’ve won because your partner got injured and because your partner made a backdoor agreement without your input…
Jazmyn: Yeah… and I reacted to the former by winning my first singles championship…
Camryn: Only to lose that in a triple threat you weren’t even pinned in.
Jazmyn: But I overcame that by getting my first ever world title shot…
Camryn: Yeah, I remember. The days leading up to that were the time of our lives. Everyone was convinced that it was going to be YOUR night and then a couple of bastards decided to screw you over and that’s when all the drugs started coming into play. You reacted to losing the GCW International Championship by accidentally enabling your enemy of the time to win the Global title and you nearly lost yourself again after you were robbed of the Global title you had… now this….
Jazmyn folds her arms, clearly angry by this.
Jazmyn: Thanks for reminding me of my entire history of being robbed. That about speaks to the current negative. How is this going to help me?
Camryn: I thought maybe bringing this all to light would help you see that you need to settle down and be better about reacting to the harshest of adversities and that’s something you’ve never done.
Voice: Excuse me?!?!?!
Camryn is taken by surprise at the sudden appearance of Jazmyn’s fiance Derek, who had joined Jazmyn on this walk in the San Francisco park. Jazmyn isn’t surprised, but she is, nonetheless, taken aback.
Camryn: Derek… oh wow, I haven’t seen you in YEARS!
Derek: College graduation…
Camryn: Kind of nuts how you two are engaged now. I could have never imagined it.
Derek: What’s even more nuts is HOW we came together and I couldn’t help but overhear this conversation. Jazmyn has a point. How is bringing up what you just brought up productive? And furthermore, you’re wrong. She HAS learned how to better react to the harshest of adversities.
Camryn: What was last night then?
Jazmyn groans, understandably feeling awkward seeing one of her best friends get into a mini-debate with her fiance.
Derek: Okay, last night as a slip. It happens. But for the last year and change, I have been there every step of the way, watching Jazmyn grow better and better. You recently just got back on the roller coaster, so if I were you, I wouldn’t even be talking.
Camryn stands up in a haste.
Camryn: Excuse me?
Derek: I was there for Jazmyn when she had her cardiac arrest. I was the one that revived her and got her to the hospital as soon as possible. I was the one that cared for her and tended to her the entire way through. I told her that I loved her in the event she’d never come back, but she did and she heard what I said. Heck, our first date was in that ER talking over hospital food. I have been there for her every single day ever since. There is no greater adversity in this universe than death and Jazmyn OVERCAME that by becoming better than she ever was before.
Camryn: I… well…
Derek: Want me to continue?
Jazmyn is the one standing up in a haste now.
Jazmyn: Derek, it’s okay.
Derek: No, not quite. Camryn, I got nothing but love and respect for you, but you need to stop being overbearing. I know Jazmyn has had her rock bottom, but she’ll never slip back there again. There’s no need to overreact to just one simple moment where she wasn’t herself.
Camryn: Look, I didn’t mean anything by it…
Derek: I was there for her when she dealt with a threat of someone wanting to bring out the worst of her again… heck, I even got the crap beat out of me. She could have cracked. She could have broken down and reverted back to what she was, but she DIDN’T. She could have done the same thing in Montreal when she lost her most recent Global title match in GCW because of an unfortunate referee error and did you see how she handled that?
Camryn says nothing.
Derek: She said “no hard feelings” to the referee and gave him a gift for his daughter. She handled it with the utmost class. So, don’t sit there and tell her that she has never handled the worst of adversities the right way because I have. I’ve seen it myself.
Jazmyn: Okay… okay… I think that’s enough. I don’t want you two fighting.
Camryn: It’s okay, Jaz. He’s right. I didn’t mean to be so intrusive and overprotective. It’s just… you know… Derek and I want the same thing for you we just have a different way of going about it.
Jazmyn: Who are you two? My mom and dad?
Jazmyn laughs, lightning the pressure around the moment.
Derek: Jaz…
Jazmyn looks at Derek, feeling just a bit better.
Jazmyn: Yeah?
Derek: I know you’re going through a hard time right now because of what happened last night. You were robbed, there’s no question about it. But remember, you’ve been robbed WORSE than that and you were able to shine through it like it never happened. You just need to keep your head up, not let the critics get to you and take that title from him. Don’t listen to the idiots that say you don’t deserve it, you can’t hang in NGW, among other stuff. Knowing you like I do, you’re going to figure this out. And for god’s sake, stop being so jittery and nervous about anything NGW related!
Jazmyn: I’m… I’m trying…
Jazmyn winces a little before she continues.
Jazmyn: Do I put too much pressure on myself?
Derek & Camryn: Yes.
Jazmyn: Oh…
Jazmyn laughs nervously as a response.
Camryn: Stop it!
Camryn raises her eyebrows showing her seriousness.
Derek: Well… that’s not how I’D say it but...yeah, don’t let it get to you.
Jazmyn: I can’t say I’m entirely confident with things in NGW right now…
Derek: Then BE confident, okay?
Jazmyn nods.
Jazmyn: I’ll give it my best.
Derek: Want to finish our walk now?
Jazmyn: Sure.
Camryn: Oh… uh… my apologies, I had no idea you were both in the middle of something.
Jazmyn: No worries, you can join us if you want. I mean… I’m okay with it anyway.
Derek: It’s cool. Camryn and I got about a decade of catching up to do anyway.
Camryn smiles and laughs which further lightens up the situation.
Jazmyn: Yeah… it’ll be nice to take my mind off of last night right about now…
Derek nods in understanding and the trio continue their walk in the park. For Jazmyn, she’s got so much weighing on her mind. She’s not denying that the events of Dissension is without question the first true test of adversity that she’s faced to date in her nascent NGW career, but as of yet, she still hasn’t figured out the answer for how to overcome it.
Closing Thoughts
Jazmyn Rain: I admit, I did lose my way for awhile. I was even beginning to wonder if I was in over my head being a two-company wrestler as the criticism from Julianna DiMaria, Richard Kelly among others ate at me. But the one thing I have taken away and learned from all of this is that I’m no longer in the “oh shiny” stage of my NGW career. I need to snap out of the clouds and start taking a greater initiative. It’s going to take some time for me to figure out, but as I go into my next match, I need to figure out what I can learn from this match to take with me going forward. Once I figure that out, not only am I going to win against Ruby Rose in Chicago, I am going to know the true key to bouncing back from my first dose of harsh adversity in my NGW career so far!
Opening Thoughts
Jazmyn Rain: How many chapters of sorrow have I endured in my wrestling career? It seems like it’s been countless. I’ve had my moments of glory, but I am not going to lie to you. On occasion, it irks me that these moments of glory have a heaping gap between them all. I haven’t held a championship of any kind in nineteen and a half months while some of my contemporaries and friends win World Championships like it’s no big deal. I’m occasionally irked by the fact that in my entire career, dating back to 2011, I’ve held only five championships overall. That’s five titles in six years, with three being singles titles. That’s not… well… great. Okay, so I was gone from wrestling for two of those years but five titles period in just four years doesn’t sound THAT much better…
Yeah, I think now you guys know why I don’t, and can’t really, consider myself a star in this business. With what I just described, how can I ever feel like one? What happened at the C2 Con with Dissension was another one of these chapters of sorrows that delayed a moment of glory. I was so confident going in that I was going to beat Trixie and Jew Blazer in the same night to be the Five Lakes Champion, but of course, as the story appears to go with my career sometimes, there’s ALWAYS that unforeseen circumstance that gets in the way.
This time? It was Jack Tillman of the Destroyers and now HE’S the Five Lakes Champion. Believe me, it’s a guilty feeling knowing that it was something that could have been prevented and now, we have ourselves a worst-case scenario as far as the championship is concerned. A Destroyer holds it now… and now it’s my job to fix that. But how?
I never got my chance against Trixie.
Before then, it’s not like I was THAT close to being in title contendership. And worse yet, my biggest win to date in Caroline O’Hara Burchill lost to ALICIA HIXX, she of one of the worst win percentages in NGW at the moment, so that kind of puts a dent in things a little more.
Either way, in light of what took place at Dissension, I’ve been hit with the realization that I seemingly have a longer way to go than I thought. Where do I go from here? Lord only knows. I was robbed at Dissension in a cruel and callous fashion. But it’s onto the next…
I’ve got a WCG call up coming in HER debut match in Chicago…
Date: October 9, 2017
On the morning after Dissension, Jazmyn Rain sits down at a park in the middle of a morning walk in San Francisco. She’s definitely out of her element as her mood is largely melancholy. The events of the night before only trigger some bad memories from earlier in her career when she was far from the wrestler and the woman that she is now. Jazmyn knows the drill, being a psychology major back at Florida State. She does realize that the events of the night before triggered something psychologically in her that temporarily put her back in a dark place, if only for a few moments, during her interview with Hannah Lacey where she lost her cool. It’s this brief event that is causing her the most grief as guilt from that moment of anger is sweeping her.
Jazmyn: That’s not me… that’s not me…
Jazmyn says this to herself, then repeats it in her mind as she copes with the guilt she’s experiencing from that moment of anger. She looks down, trying her best not to feel sorry for herself. She hasn’t exactly snapped out of that darker place she’d be in on a constant basis as recent as even 14 months ago so the struggle to deal with being a victim of Jack Tillman’s nonsense is more real than what anyone can imagine.
Jazmyn: Another cruel chapter of sorrow…
Voice: Does it really need to be?
Jazmyn looks up and sees her college best friend Camryn Rourke standing above her. Her eyes widen as she sits down next to her.
Jazmyn: Cammie… I didn’t know you were going to be here.
Camryn: Your dad’s undergoing surgery for his colon cancer, right? I figured you were going to have a hard time with that but… yeah, I see that last night just piled on, huh?
Jazmyn: Yeah…
Jazmyn signs.
Jazmyn: Do I need to explain what happened?
Camryn: No, I saw. You had a moment. I don’t blame you. But the last time we spoke, you know… I was concerned about this sort of thing… how you’d react if something like last night happened to you…
Jazmyn: Cammie, not now….
Jazmyn turns away from her friend, but Camryn grabs her hand trying to show some solidarity with her.
Camryn: Jazmyn, you’re not in a good place right now. I understand what’s going on with your dad is part of it, but every time something like this happens to you in wrestling, you don’t handle it all that well.
Jazmyn: That’s in the past…
Camryn: Flipping over a television set after Jack Tillman won the Five Lakes title isn’t exactly “in the past” since it’s quite similar to how you’d normally take stuff like that.
Jazmyn sighs again, this time, with a tone of annoyance.
Camryn: Can you look at me for a second?
Jazmyn reluctantly turns to Camryn and immediately looks in her eyes. Her own eyes widen in surprise when she sees the deep pools of concern that are in the eyes of her friend.
Camryn: It’s always like this whenever something involves a championship. You got stripped of both of your tag team titles you’ve won because your partner got injured and because your partner made a backdoor agreement without your input…
Jazmyn: Yeah… and I reacted to the former by winning my first singles championship…
Camryn: Only to lose that in a triple threat you weren’t even pinned in.
Jazmyn: But I overcame that by getting my first ever world title shot…
Camryn: Yeah, I remember. The days leading up to that were the time of our lives. Everyone was convinced that it was going to be YOUR night and then a couple of bastards decided to screw you over and that’s when all the drugs started coming into play. You reacted to losing the GCW International Championship by accidentally enabling your enemy of the time to win the Global title and you nearly lost yourself again after you were robbed of the Global title you had… now this….
Jazmyn folds her arms, clearly angry by this.
Jazmyn: Thanks for reminding me of my entire history of being robbed. That about speaks to the current negative. How is this going to help me?
Camryn: I thought maybe bringing this all to light would help you see that you need to settle down and be better about reacting to the harshest of adversities and that’s something you’ve never done.
Voice: Excuse me?!?!?!
Camryn is taken by surprise at the sudden appearance of Jazmyn’s fiance Derek, who had joined Jazmyn on this walk in the San Francisco park. Jazmyn isn’t surprised, but she is, nonetheless, taken aback.
Camryn: Derek… oh wow, I haven’t seen you in YEARS!
Derek: College graduation…
Camryn: Kind of nuts how you two are engaged now. I could have never imagined it.
Derek: What’s even more nuts is HOW we came together and I couldn’t help but overhear this conversation. Jazmyn has a point. How is bringing up what you just brought up productive? And furthermore, you’re wrong. She HAS learned how to better react to the harshest of adversities.
Camryn: What was last night then?
Jazmyn groans, understandably feeling awkward seeing one of her best friends get into a mini-debate with her fiance.
Derek: Okay, last night as a slip. It happens. But for the last year and change, I have been there every step of the way, watching Jazmyn grow better and better. You recently just got back on the roller coaster, so if I were you, I wouldn’t even be talking.
Camryn stands up in a haste.
Camryn: Excuse me?
Derek: I was there for Jazmyn when she had her cardiac arrest. I was the one that revived her and got her to the hospital as soon as possible. I was the one that cared for her and tended to her the entire way through. I told her that I loved her in the event she’d never come back, but she did and she heard what I said. Heck, our first date was in that ER talking over hospital food. I have been there for her every single day ever since. There is no greater adversity in this universe than death and Jazmyn OVERCAME that by becoming better than she ever was before.
Camryn: I… well…
Derek: Want me to continue?
Jazmyn is the one standing up in a haste now.
Jazmyn: Derek, it’s okay.
Derek: No, not quite. Camryn, I got nothing but love and respect for you, but you need to stop being overbearing. I know Jazmyn has had her rock bottom, but she’ll never slip back there again. There’s no need to overreact to just one simple moment where she wasn’t herself.
Camryn: Look, I didn’t mean anything by it…
Derek: I was there for her when she dealt with a threat of someone wanting to bring out the worst of her again… heck, I even got the crap beat out of me. She could have cracked. She could have broken down and reverted back to what she was, but she DIDN’T. She could have done the same thing in Montreal when she lost her most recent Global title match in GCW because of an unfortunate referee error and did you see how she handled that?
Camryn says nothing.
Derek: She said “no hard feelings” to the referee and gave him a gift for his daughter. She handled it with the utmost class. So, don’t sit there and tell her that she has never handled the worst of adversities the right way because I have. I’ve seen it myself.
Jazmyn: Okay… okay… I think that’s enough. I don’t want you two fighting.
Camryn: It’s okay, Jaz. He’s right. I didn’t mean to be so intrusive and overprotective. It’s just… you know… Derek and I want the same thing for you we just have a different way of going about it.
Jazmyn: Who are you two? My mom and dad?
Jazmyn laughs, lightning the pressure around the moment.
Derek: Jaz…
Jazmyn looks at Derek, feeling just a bit better.
Jazmyn: Yeah?
Derek: I know you’re going through a hard time right now because of what happened last night. You were robbed, there’s no question about it. But remember, you’ve been robbed WORSE than that and you were able to shine through it like it never happened. You just need to keep your head up, not let the critics get to you and take that title from him. Don’t listen to the idiots that say you don’t deserve it, you can’t hang in NGW, among other stuff. Knowing you like I do, you’re going to figure this out. And for god’s sake, stop being so jittery and nervous about anything NGW related!
Jazmyn: I’m… I’m trying…
Jazmyn winces a little before she continues.
Jazmyn: Do I put too much pressure on myself?
Derek & Camryn: Yes.
Jazmyn: Oh…
Jazmyn laughs nervously as a response.
Camryn: Stop it!
Camryn raises her eyebrows showing her seriousness.
Derek: Well… that’s not how I’D say it but...yeah, don’t let it get to you.
Jazmyn: I can’t say I’m entirely confident with things in NGW right now…
Derek: Then BE confident, okay?
Jazmyn nods.
Jazmyn: I’ll give it my best.
Derek: Want to finish our walk now?
Jazmyn: Sure.
Camryn: Oh… uh… my apologies, I had no idea you were both in the middle of something.
Jazmyn: No worries, you can join us if you want. I mean… I’m okay with it anyway.
Derek: It’s cool. Camryn and I got about a decade of catching up to do anyway.
Camryn smiles and laughs which further lightens up the situation.
Jazmyn: Yeah… it’ll be nice to take my mind off of last night right about now…
Derek nods in understanding and the trio continue their walk in the park. For Jazmyn, she’s got so much weighing on her mind. She’s not denying that the events of Dissension is without question the first true test of adversity that she’s faced to date in her nascent NGW career, but as of yet, she still hasn’t figured out the answer for how to overcome it.
Closing Thoughts
Jazmyn Rain: I admit, I did lose my way for awhile. I was even beginning to wonder if I was in over my head being a two-company wrestler as the criticism from Julianna DiMaria, Richard Kelly among others ate at me. But the one thing I have taken away and learned from all of this is that I’m no longer in the “oh shiny” stage of my NGW career. I need to snap out of the clouds and start taking a greater initiative. It’s going to take some time for me to figure out, but as I go into my next match, I need to figure out what I can learn from this match to take with me going forward. Once I figure that out, not only am I going to win against Ruby Rose in Chicago, I am going to know the true key to bouncing back from my first dose of harsh adversity in my NGW career so far!
