Post by Jazmyn Rain on Sept 29, 2017 15:55:21 GMT -5
“Risk and Reward”
Opening Thoughts
Jazmyn Rain: “Convergence was certainly one night to remember and I think as far as Redemption... or NGW rather… that’s likely a big understatement. Yes, I had my win over DeSean Walker and that’s great, but with the news of the company rebranding back to NGW and going back to its roots and with the formation of the Guardians, there’s so much more to talk about.
As for me? Well, I admit that jumping into the fire and taking on the Destroyers alongside Adrien, Alechs and Honey is a pretty big risk! I can already tell there are going to be some serious detractors that feel like I am biting off more than I can chew when you consider that I have only had four NGW matches to date. But if you know me long enough, ask yourself this:
Do I look like someone that is just going to sit around and wait for an opportunity to come to me? If you know me long enough and well enough, the answer should be no. I’ve admitted, and I’ll reiterate right here and now, that patience isn’t exactly a strong suit for me. There wasn’t a chance in this world that I was going to just let the Destroyers come after me before I got myself involved in things. And yes, I admit that due to my relative newness to the company, if I hadn’t gotten involved the way I did, they likely would have left me alone, probably because they didn’t think of me as important enough to deal with considering the short time I’ve been here.
I wasn’t going to let them have their way, especially during that cage match with Adrien and Shields. Have I painted a target on my back? No doubt. Am I risking life and limb? Definitely! But this isn’t the first time I’ve done so and I’ve had my ups and downs doing so, but the rewards that come with the risk? In this case, the reward is seeing the Destroyers off as a thing of the past and keeping NGW’s sanctity intact.
That being said… THAT reward IS worth the risk.”
Date: September 26, 2017
Taking a GCW detour through Oklahoma, Jazmyn Rain is spending her Tuesday night just outside of a casino largely there for dinner and not to gamble. She’s dressed casually, nothing fancy, but enough for her to blend in with the more country surroundings, which she’s always done well. The area is a little secluded, very little traffic surrounds the area so the stars of the night are out in full force. Jazmyn is currently seated on a bench that’s a few meters in front of the casino, waiting for someone to arrive for a pre-arranged meeting. She checks her watch and then looks forward, smiling as she sees a familiar car coming toward her.
Jazmyn: There she is!
Jazmyn stands up, keeping her purse slung over her left shoulder as she waits to greet the person. She watches the person walk out of the driver’s side of the car and she spends no time greeting this person.
Jazmyn: Cammie! Hi!
Jazmyn and Camryn Rourke, her best friend from her college days that she reunited with shortly before her NGW debut, walk toward each other and give each other a hug.
Camryn: Hey Jaz! How are you?
Jazmyn: I’m doing fine! How about you?
Camryn: Doing great. I know, it’s been a while but we’re both so busy and… you know the drill.
Jazmyn: Yeah…
Jazmyn pauses to chuckle for a bit, feeling quite confident in herself as the conversation continues along.
Jazmyn: That’s how it’s been more or less since college came and went.
Camryn: So what are you doing here in Oklahoma? Don’t you have to be in St. Louis?
Jazmyn: Yeah, Sunday night.
Camryn: So what’s going on? Are you trying to put off being there as much as possible?
Jazmyn raises her eyebrows, obviously confused not just at how Camryn knows the personal significance the city of St. Louis has on Jazmyn’s life and career, but why she would suddenly assume that she would want to avoid being in that particular city at all.
Jazmyn: Um… no… why would I do that?
Camryn: After what you’ve experienced there before…
Jazmyn: How would you even know about that?
Camryn: I caught up with your father recently. We had a rather excellent conversation and he filled me in a little more on what I missed out on. I know, I’m sorry. I should have come to you, but you know, you’re so busy and all.
Jazmyn: Fair… but I would never avoid St. Louis. In fact, GCW was there earlier this year. I’m not running from that city. I’m here in Oklahoma because GCW is having a show in Tulsa on Saturday. Cut and dry! I’m going to go to St. Louis, fight my four way tag match in NGW, and win or lose, we move forward. It’s a lot more complex than the way I just described it, but that’s how it’s going to go.
Camryn: Jaz, can we sit down for a few minutes?
Jazmyn’s becoming really confused and a part of her is worried with how borderline aggressive Camryn has been at the jump of this conversation.
Jazmyn: Sure…
She goes along with it, obviously trying to keep the peace, as the two of them sit down on the bench Jazmyn was sitting at while she awaited Camryn’s arrival.
Camryn: I’m worried about you.
Jazmyn: Huh?
Camryn: I’m sorry if I’m coming off a little too strong, but it’s from a good place. I know you can trust me on that. Some of the stuff your dad told me about, and knowing what you’ve been through in the past, it makes me wonder if you’re taking on a little more than you can handle. I saw what you did recently, when you saved your friend and jumped into this big war going on in NGW and I can’t help but ask myself “what if this goes wrong for Jazmyn?”
Jazmyn: How can it go wrong? I know nothing will be perfect, but…
Camryn: Jaz, I have seen how you get when things go drastically wrong for you. I was right there when you got laid off from your first job after college and how you were broken down, you hated the world around you and you felt like you had no purpose in the world so you were depressed about it for months. You really didn’t do much with your life until you chose to be a wrestler. I’m sorry, I have to point that out.
Jazmyn isn’t exactly in a good mood now, as a regretful pout forms across her face.
Camryn: And you know that even in wrestling, things have taken a downturn for you before. A few years ago, I was right there with you, front row seat, when you fought your first world title match of your life and it got torn away from you in a cruel, heartbreaking fashion due to underhanded nonsense and then that’s when you went on your drug-induced downward spiral and you and I both know what happened to our friendship because of that.
Jazmyn: Yeah…
Jazmyn rolls her eyes in a bit of an annoyed fashion.
Camryn: St. Louis… last year… when you got your sole world title to date robbed from you the way it happened… when you took on your demons and you lost that seven stages of hell match 13 months ago when you didn’t even quit in that I Quit fall at the end. Your dad told me all about that… about how you fell apart thinking you were always going to be miserable… about how you were dead for three minutes before you were miraculously revived by CPR…
Jazmyn: So what you’re saying is, fighting the good fight against the Destroyers could lead me down a similar path to everything you just mentioned if it doesn’t work out?
Camryn: More or less… yeah!
Jazmyn sighs, and shakes her head.
Camryn: You have to realize the kind of risk you’re taking. I don’t want you going back to that dark place again. As long as I’ve known you, as much as I love you, and we’ve gone over this so many times over the years, you’ve always been fragile, taking everything to heart and you really take things personally when things don’t go your way. You act like every shortcoming is the end of the world. Your self-esteem, your spirit… just one moment of pure despair… your foundation collapses.
Jazmyn folds her arms, trying to do her best to cope with the somewhat scathing criticism that her own friend is dealing her. She knows that Camryn’s intentions are pure, but she’s also annoyed with the criticism knowing deep in her heart that the narrative is far from what Camryn is portraying.
Jazmyn: You need to let it all go….
Camryn: What do you mean?
Jazmyn: Do I honestly look like someone that can be pushed over and be told to play it safe? Yes, I know. It’s a risky move for me to take on the “big bads” of NGW. Yes, I know they can be vicious, brutal, cold, calculating and they can seriously injure me and end my career, but do you think I care? NO! You’re basing your worries and your concerns about me based on things that have happened in the past and I’m going to be really honest right back, I don’t appreciate it at all. I think you’re insulting my intelligence and even insulting ME! You’ve yet to experience first hand who I really am NOW! You have to see it to believe it, yes. But take that initiative, and make your judgment then.
Camryn: Jaz, my intention wasn’t to insult you!
Jazmyn: I know it wasn’t. Yes, I know things happened. I know I took being laid off from my first job so bad that I hated my own life. I know I fell into drugs and hit rock bottom. I know that for three minutes, I was clinically dead last year. But that’s the thing… I beat death. And if I can beat death, the worst of the worst of this business can’t break me! What YOU need to realize is that this is a different situation with me. I’ve ALWAYS had this strength and this spirit within me, but before said clinical death, I didn’t realize I had it in me to begin with. That was a life-altering experience for me that taught me about who I am and how strong I am. I’m not that person anymore, Cammie. I risk life and limb, but that’s what makes it all worth it. I appreciate your concern, but I’m going to fight the good fight.
Camryn: But…
Jazmyn shoots Camryn a slightly angry glare letting her know who is in charge of the conversation.
Jazmyn: You’re not going to convince me otherwise. Doing what’s right requires so much risk, but the rewards are worth it. I know this from my own journey, especially when I brought Utopia down in GCW in the same vain I hope to put down the Destroyers in the coming months. When I saved GCW from Utopia, it was one of the best feelings in the world. It was almost nirvana in a sense. Yes, Utopia and the Destroyers are two completely separate entities, but I KNOW I can do it. I don’t crumble in the face of adversity anymore and that’s something YOU need to catch up on.
Camryn sighs with a tone of guilt behind it.
Camryn: You’re right. I’m thinking in the past too much and I really don’t know… you know… you as you are now.
Jazmyn: Then get to know me! I know we have five years of stuff to catch up on, but still.
Camryn: I feel so bad that I pre-judged you that way… I profusely apologize. I didn’t mean to insult you. If you want to do this, you have my support. But… gosh, I feel so horrible. I want to make it up to you so bad. Thinking about the words that came out of my mouth, I should have known better.
Jazmyn: Are you doing anything this weekend?
Camryn: My schedule is free, why?
Jazmyn: Come to St. Louis with me and see it all for yourself.
Jazmyn smiles, assuring Camryn that her apology is accepted and all is forgiven.
Camryn: Oh… and here I was worried you wouldn’t want to talk to me again.
Jazmyn: Look, I know you were looking out for me and you didn’t mean to hurt me. But, if you come to St. Louis with me, you’ll see for yourself what I’m all about now!
Camryn: Okay! If that’s what it takes to make it up to you… I’m in!
Jazmyn: Great!
Putting the tense conversation behind them, the two friends embrace again.
Jazmyn: Speaking of risk… wanna have some fun inside the casino… after we have something to eat of course…
Camryn: Sure! We came here to hang out, catch up and have fun, right?
Jazmyn smiles at her again, assuring her sentiments. The two then stand up and walk inside the casino, enjoying themselves and rekindling their old friendship throughout the rest of their evening.
Closing Thoughts
Jazmyn Rain: I’m risking so much of my well-being diving into this war with the Destroyers, I am not denying that a bit. Something can go seriously wrong and I could be put out of commission, I realize that. But is that going to stop me from doing the right thing? Heck no! As long as my body, soul and spirit are willing and able, I’ll fight alongside Adrien, Alechs and Honey and together we’re going to make sure we experience the overdue rewards of ridding NGW of the threat known as the Destroyers!
Opening Thoughts
Jazmyn Rain: “Convergence was certainly one night to remember and I think as far as Redemption... or NGW rather… that’s likely a big understatement. Yes, I had my win over DeSean Walker and that’s great, but with the news of the company rebranding back to NGW and going back to its roots and with the formation of the Guardians, there’s so much more to talk about.
As for me? Well, I admit that jumping into the fire and taking on the Destroyers alongside Adrien, Alechs and Honey is a pretty big risk! I can already tell there are going to be some serious detractors that feel like I am biting off more than I can chew when you consider that I have only had four NGW matches to date. But if you know me long enough, ask yourself this:
Do I look like someone that is just going to sit around and wait for an opportunity to come to me? If you know me long enough and well enough, the answer should be no. I’ve admitted, and I’ll reiterate right here and now, that patience isn’t exactly a strong suit for me. There wasn’t a chance in this world that I was going to just let the Destroyers come after me before I got myself involved in things. And yes, I admit that due to my relative newness to the company, if I hadn’t gotten involved the way I did, they likely would have left me alone, probably because they didn’t think of me as important enough to deal with considering the short time I’ve been here.
I wasn’t going to let them have their way, especially during that cage match with Adrien and Shields. Have I painted a target on my back? No doubt. Am I risking life and limb? Definitely! But this isn’t the first time I’ve done so and I’ve had my ups and downs doing so, but the rewards that come with the risk? In this case, the reward is seeing the Destroyers off as a thing of the past and keeping NGW’s sanctity intact.
That being said… THAT reward IS worth the risk.”
Date: September 26, 2017
Taking a GCW detour through Oklahoma, Jazmyn Rain is spending her Tuesday night just outside of a casino largely there for dinner and not to gamble. She’s dressed casually, nothing fancy, but enough for her to blend in with the more country surroundings, which she’s always done well. The area is a little secluded, very little traffic surrounds the area so the stars of the night are out in full force. Jazmyn is currently seated on a bench that’s a few meters in front of the casino, waiting for someone to arrive for a pre-arranged meeting. She checks her watch and then looks forward, smiling as she sees a familiar car coming toward her.
Jazmyn: There she is!
Jazmyn stands up, keeping her purse slung over her left shoulder as she waits to greet the person. She watches the person walk out of the driver’s side of the car and she spends no time greeting this person.
Jazmyn: Cammie! Hi!
Jazmyn and Camryn Rourke, her best friend from her college days that she reunited with shortly before her NGW debut, walk toward each other and give each other a hug.
Camryn: Hey Jaz! How are you?
Jazmyn: I’m doing fine! How about you?
Camryn: Doing great. I know, it’s been a while but we’re both so busy and… you know the drill.
Jazmyn: Yeah…
Jazmyn pauses to chuckle for a bit, feeling quite confident in herself as the conversation continues along.
Jazmyn: That’s how it’s been more or less since college came and went.
Camryn: So what are you doing here in Oklahoma? Don’t you have to be in St. Louis?
Jazmyn: Yeah, Sunday night.
Camryn: So what’s going on? Are you trying to put off being there as much as possible?
Jazmyn raises her eyebrows, obviously confused not just at how Camryn knows the personal significance the city of St. Louis has on Jazmyn’s life and career, but why she would suddenly assume that she would want to avoid being in that particular city at all.
Jazmyn: Um… no… why would I do that?
Camryn: After what you’ve experienced there before…
Jazmyn: How would you even know about that?
Camryn: I caught up with your father recently. We had a rather excellent conversation and he filled me in a little more on what I missed out on. I know, I’m sorry. I should have come to you, but you know, you’re so busy and all.
Jazmyn: Fair… but I would never avoid St. Louis. In fact, GCW was there earlier this year. I’m not running from that city. I’m here in Oklahoma because GCW is having a show in Tulsa on Saturday. Cut and dry! I’m going to go to St. Louis, fight my four way tag match in NGW, and win or lose, we move forward. It’s a lot more complex than the way I just described it, but that’s how it’s going to go.
Camryn: Jaz, can we sit down for a few minutes?
Jazmyn’s becoming really confused and a part of her is worried with how borderline aggressive Camryn has been at the jump of this conversation.
Jazmyn: Sure…
She goes along with it, obviously trying to keep the peace, as the two of them sit down on the bench Jazmyn was sitting at while she awaited Camryn’s arrival.
Camryn: I’m worried about you.
Jazmyn: Huh?
Camryn: I’m sorry if I’m coming off a little too strong, but it’s from a good place. I know you can trust me on that. Some of the stuff your dad told me about, and knowing what you’ve been through in the past, it makes me wonder if you’re taking on a little more than you can handle. I saw what you did recently, when you saved your friend and jumped into this big war going on in NGW and I can’t help but ask myself “what if this goes wrong for Jazmyn?”
Jazmyn: How can it go wrong? I know nothing will be perfect, but…
Camryn: Jaz, I have seen how you get when things go drastically wrong for you. I was right there when you got laid off from your first job after college and how you were broken down, you hated the world around you and you felt like you had no purpose in the world so you were depressed about it for months. You really didn’t do much with your life until you chose to be a wrestler. I’m sorry, I have to point that out.
Jazmyn isn’t exactly in a good mood now, as a regretful pout forms across her face.
Camryn: And you know that even in wrestling, things have taken a downturn for you before. A few years ago, I was right there with you, front row seat, when you fought your first world title match of your life and it got torn away from you in a cruel, heartbreaking fashion due to underhanded nonsense and then that’s when you went on your drug-induced downward spiral and you and I both know what happened to our friendship because of that.
Jazmyn: Yeah…
Jazmyn rolls her eyes in a bit of an annoyed fashion.
Camryn: St. Louis… last year… when you got your sole world title to date robbed from you the way it happened… when you took on your demons and you lost that seven stages of hell match 13 months ago when you didn’t even quit in that I Quit fall at the end. Your dad told me all about that… about how you fell apart thinking you were always going to be miserable… about how you were dead for three minutes before you were miraculously revived by CPR…
Jazmyn: So what you’re saying is, fighting the good fight against the Destroyers could lead me down a similar path to everything you just mentioned if it doesn’t work out?
Camryn: More or less… yeah!
Jazmyn sighs, and shakes her head.
Camryn: You have to realize the kind of risk you’re taking. I don’t want you going back to that dark place again. As long as I’ve known you, as much as I love you, and we’ve gone over this so many times over the years, you’ve always been fragile, taking everything to heart and you really take things personally when things don’t go your way. You act like every shortcoming is the end of the world. Your self-esteem, your spirit… just one moment of pure despair… your foundation collapses.
Jazmyn folds her arms, trying to do her best to cope with the somewhat scathing criticism that her own friend is dealing her. She knows that Camryn’s intentions are pure, but she’s also annoyed with the criticism knowing deep in her heart that the narrative is far from what Camryn is portraying.
Jazmyn: You need to let it all go….
Camryn: What do you mean?
Jazmyn: Do I honestly look like someone that can be pushed over and be told to play it safe? Yes, I know. It’s a risky move for me to take on the “big bads” of NGW. Yes, I know they can be vicious, brutal, cold, calculating and they can seriously injure me and end my career, but do you think I care? NO! You’re basing your worries and your concerns about me based on things that have happened in the past and I’m going to be really honest right back, I don’t appreciate it at all. I think you’re insulting my intelligence and even insulting ME! You’ve yet to experience first hand who I really am NOW! You have to see it to believe it, yes. But take that initiative, and make your judgment then.
Camryn: Jaz, my intention wasn’t to insult you!
Jazmyn: I know it wasn’t. Yes, I know things happened. I know I took being laid off from my first job so bad that I hated my own life. I know I fell into drugs and hit rock bottom. I know that for three minutes, I was clinically dead last year. But that’s the thing… I beat death. And if I can beat death, the worst of the worst of this business can’t break me! What YOU need to realize is that this is a different situation with me. I’ve ALWAYS had this strength and this spirit within me, but before said clinical death, I didn’t realize I had it in me to begin with. That was a life-altering experience for me that taught me about who I am and how strong I am. I’m not that person anymore, Cammie. I risk life and limb, but that’s what makes it all worth it. I appreciate your concern, but I’m going to fight the good fight.
Camryn: But…
Jazmyn shoots Camryn a slightly angry glare letting her know who is in charge of the conversation.
Jazmyn: You’re not going to convince me otherwise. Doing what’s right requires so much risk, but the rewards are worth it. I know this from my own journey, especially when I brought Utopia down in GCW in the same vain I hope to put down the Destroyers in the coming months. When I saved GCW from Utopia, it was one of the best feelings in the world. It was almost nirvana in a sense. Yes, Utopia and the Destroyers are two completely separate entities, but I KNOW I can do it. I don’t crumble in the face of adversity anymore and that’s something YOU need to catch up on.
Camryn sighs with a tone of guilt behind it.
Camryn: You’re right. I’m thinking in the past too much and I really don’t know… you know… you as you are now.
Jazmyn: Then get to know me! I know we have five years of stuff to catch up on, but still.
Camryn: I feel so bad that I pre-judged you that way… I profusely apologize. I didn’t mean to insult you. If you want to do this, you have my support. But… gosh, I feel so horrible. I want to make it up to you so bad. Thinking about the words that came out of my mouth, I should have known better.
Jazmyn: Are you doing anything this weekend?
Camryn: My schedule is free, why?
Jazmyn: Come to St. Louis with me and see it all for yourself.
Jazmyn smiles, assuring Camryn that her apology is accepted and all is forgiven.
Camryn: Oh… and here I was worried you wouldn’t want to talk to me again.
Jazmyn: Look, I know you were looking out for me and you didn’t mean to hurt me. But, if you come to St. Louis with me, you’ll see for yourself what I’m all about now!
Camryn: Okay! If that’s what it takes to make it up to you… I’m in!
Jazmyn: Great!
Putting the tense conversation behind them, the two friends embrace again.
Jazmyn: Speaking of risk… wanna have some fun inside the casino… after we have something to eat of course…
Camryn: Sure! We came here to hang out, catch up and have fun, right?
Jazmyn smiles at her again, assuring her sentiments. The two then stand up and walk inside the casino, enjoying themselves and rekindling their old friendship throughout the rest of their evening.
Closing Thoughts
Jazmyn Rain: I’m risking so much of my well-being diving into this war with the Destroyers, I am not denying that a bit. Something can go seriously wrong and I could be put out of commission, I realize that. But is that going to stop me from doing the right thing? Heck no! As long as my body, soul and spirit are willing and able, I’ll fight alongside Adrien, Alechs and Honey and together we’re going to make sure we experience the overdue rewards of ridding NGW of the threat known as the Destroyers!
