Post by Jazmyn Rain on Sept 17, 2017 21:46:56 GMT -5
“Remembering Square One”
Date: September 17, 2017
Jazmyn Rain finds herself sitting alone in a park in Brooklyn, New York. A few hours before Convergence, Jazmyn is gathering her final thoughts as she reflects on not just DeSean Walker, but also her beginnings as a professional wrestler once she started to get in that ring on a regular basis. This is an eye opening experience for her as she realizes almost instantly that she has become a far better wrestler now, than what she had been when she first started. She’s retaining her confidence as she is not worried at all about the possibility of being ‘upset’ by DeSean Walker. The self-proclaimed Guardian Angel smiles with confidence, before taking a deep breath and expressing her final thoughts about Convergence.
Jazmyn Rain: As Convergence draws near, I’ve been asking myself whether or not I remember the way things were when I first broke into this business and got into the mainstream. This was an era that was six to seven years ago and I do remember how fast things were going. Of course, what does one mean when you say “first break in”? Does it mean having your first match on the mainstream scene or having your first match period? I’m openly wondering this because DeSean Walker, as you all know, is someone that is in only his second match ever. This isn’t just his second match in Redemption, it’s his second match period. I remember my second match, which some would define in the Indies or in the mainstream but in my second match ever, it was around late 2010 when I fought it. It was for some Indy show in Richmond. I was like the third match on the card and oh my goodness, pardon my language, but I was shit! I didn’t just lose that match, I didn’t just lose it badly, but I was so uncoordinated that the promoter decided to not even give me another chance. I remember how much I was bawling after the fact, knowing that I was such a screw up and obviously, my self-esteem was only 5 percent as good as it’s become. I did get better, obviously. I ended up going mainstream early in the year. My second mainstream match was facing someone in an impromptu match after they had just wrestled and I won it… but obviously, I can’t be proud of such a thing.
Why do I discuss my early beginnings in this business? Facing DeSean Walker gives me a brand new perspective, knowing that I was there, where he was at before. When you’re fighting in just your second match ever as the new kid on the block, nobody else is really taking you seriously. People aren’t going to have respect for you, they are going to want to do everything and anything they can to drive you out of this business because some of those veterans fear being replaced by you. I remember starting my career as a tag team specialist and being seen as the weak link and then when my partner got injured, they all thought I was going to be swimming with sharks. With extremely limited singles experience, not to mention being a 27 YEAR OLD ROOKIE at the time, I had no business even winning a singles championship let alone getting to where I am today. I was at first seen as an easy win and then I started to pull upset after upset. Nobody thought that I was able to maintain my momentum and yet I did… at least until the drugs hit, but that’s another story. Essentially, the road to get to where I am today was far from easy. It was not only difficult, but it was brutal, painful and cruel and this is something that a guy like DeSean Walker, with all due respect to his potential, has never dealt with before. He’s being thrown into the fire at Convergence just like I was coming in here and facing Blazer and Caroline. But in a way, I’m not even out of the fire yet. I have that pressure on me that Caroline must have had. I know going into this match with DeSean, that if I lose, that’s going to essentially nullify any case I have of getting a New Generation title match or even becoming a contender as part of the conversation at all. I HAVE to win this match. I can’t afford to lose tonight! I’m going into this thing now knowing what my opponents felt during my rookie year when they were facing me… and when I was pulling out upset wins over them. I can’t let that happen to me, I remember when those people told me that losing to me would be embarrassing… and then me feeling insulted and pissed off to the point where I was even more motivated to get in that ring and beat them. I’m NOT going to say the same thing about Convergence, not only because it’s wrong and should never be said to anyone, but because all it’s going to do is light a fire under DeSean and the last thing I need at this point is to give an opponent all the free motivation in the world…
...especially when he’s gone completely radio silent ever since he lost his debut match to Anton Chase…
I don’t say this with the intent to put pressure on myself, but if I lose tonight, it’s back to square one for me, there’s no better way to put it and I’ve been there far too many times to want to go back there again. This is no less a do or die match for me than my match with Caroline a couple of weeks ago. I win, I sustain my momentum and I have whoever is the New Generation champion after tonight in clear, plain sight. I’m not going to be waiting in the wings too much longer, especially if I continue to make my case with a win tonight. I’m not going to underestimate or overlook my opponent, I’ll say that much right now. Knowing what my opponents felt when I was a rookie, I know every single way to avoid the upset. Avoiding having that same attitude those folks felt about me is essentially the key to coming away with this win and I don’t know what is going on with DeSean. I don’t understand his radio silence. Maybe he was shaken up a little too much with his big debut loss, maybe he just doesn’t have the passion for this like many were hoping he would… I don’t know. I can only speculate, but when it’s all said and done, I have to take care of business tonight, period! I didn’t come to Convergence to lose and I didn’t come to Redemption Wrestling to be a failure. I came here to become a champion this company can be proud of and to take on and overcome all the tyrannical evil that wants to make this company all about them along the way. Obviously, DeSean isn’t the latter, but tonight, when I defeat him, I am definitely going to prove the former just a little bit more.
Sorry DeSean Walker… I don’t doubt that you’re a good guy and all, but at the end of the day, business is business. Nothing personal! But tonight, I step in that ring with you, I teach you what I can, I avoid overlooking you the way my opponents did to me when I was at your level of experience, and I continue to make my statement heard about the New Generation division. This match isn’t a headliner by any means, but I’m going to make the most of what I have as I continue to build my case for a New Generation championship opportunity. Tonight? I give you all something to be proud of while we wait and see how things turn out in that four way. Soon, I won’t be waiting in the wings, I’ll be soaring with them on my way to that New Generation Championship!
A confident Jazmyn stands up and smiles for a bit before she continues to walk in the park. Now fully prepared for Convergence on a psychological level, Jazmyn is driven to show Redemption and the world why she deserves her chance!
Date: September 17, 2017
Jazmyn Rain finds herself sitting alone in a park in Brooklyn, New York. A few hours before Convergence, Jazmyn is gathering her final thoughts as she reflects on not just DeSean Walker, but also her beginnings as a professional wrestler once she started to get in that ring on a regular basis. This is an eye opening experience for her as she realizes almost instantly that she has become a far better wrestler now, than what she had been when she first started. She’s retaining her confidence as she is not worried at all about the possibility of being ‘upset’ by DeSean Walker. The self-proclaimed Guardian Angel smiles with confidence, before taking a deep breath and expressing her final thoughts about Convergence.
Jazmyn Rain: As Convergence draws near, I’ve been asking myself whether or not I remember the way things were when I first broke into this business and got into the mainstream. This was an era that was six to seven years ago and I do remember how fast things were going. Of course, what does one mean when you say “first break in”? Does it mean having your first match on the mainstream scene or having your first match period? I’m openly wondering this because DeSean Walker, as you all know, is someone that is in only his second match ever. This isn’t just his second match in Redemption, it’s his second match period. I remember my second match, which some would define in the Indies or in the mainstream but in my second match ever, it was around late 2010 when I fought it. It was for some Indy show in Richmond. I was like the third match on the card and oh my goodness, pardon my language, but I was shit! I didn’t just lose that match, I didn’t just lose it badly, but I was so uncoordinated that the promoter decided to not even give me another chance. I remember how much I was bawling after the fact, knowing that I was such a screw up and obviously, my self-esteem was only 5 percent as good as it’s become. I did get better, obviously. I ended up going mainstream early in the year. My second mainstream match was facing someone in an impromptu match after they had just wrestled and I won it… but obviously, I can’t be proud of such a thing.
Why do I discuss my early beginnings in this business? Facing DeSean Walker gives me a brand new perspective, knowing that I was there, where he was at before. When you’re fighting in just your second match ever as the new kid on the block, nobody else is really taking you seriously. People aren’t going to have respect for you, they are going to want to do everything and anything they can to drive you out of this business because some of those veterans fear being replaced by you. I remember starting my career as a tag team specialist and being seen as the weak link and then when my partner got injured, they all thought I was going to be swimming with sharks. With extremely limited singles experience, not to mention being a 27 YEAR OLD ROOKIE at the time, I had no business even winning a singles championship let alone getting to where I am today. I was at first seen as an easy win and then I started to pull upset after upset. Nobody thought that I was able to maintain my momentum and yet I did… at least until the drugs hit, but that’s another story. Essentially, the road to get to where I am today was far from easy. It was not only difficult, but it was brutal, painful and cruel and this is something that a guy like DeSean Walker, with all due respect to his potential, has never dealt with before. He’s being thrown into the fire at Convergence just like I was coming in here and facing Blazer and Caroline. But in a way, I’m not even out of the fire yet. I have that pressure on me that Caroline must have had. I know going into this match with DeSean, that if I lose, that’s going to essentially nullify any case I have of getting a New Generation title match or even becoming a contender as part of the conversation at all. I HAVE to win this match. I can’t afford to lose tonight! I’m going into this thing now knowing what my opponents felt during my rookie year when they were facing me… and when I was pulling out upset wins over them. I can’t let that happen to me, I remember when those people told me that losing to me would be embarrassing… and then me feeling insulted and pissed off to the point where I was even more motivated to get in that ring and beat them. I’m NOT going to say the same thing about Convergence, not only because it’s wrong and should never be said to anyone, but because all it’s going to do is light a fire under DeSean and the last thing I need at this point is to give an opponent all the free motivation in the world…
...especially when he’s gone completely radio silent ever since he lost his debut match to Anton Chase…
I don’t say this with the intent to put pressure on myself, but if I lose tonight, it’s back to square one for me, there’s no better way to put it and I’ve been there far too many times to want to go back there again. This is no less a do or die match for me than my match with Caroline a couple of weeks ago. I win, I sustain my momentum and I have whoever is the New Generation champion after tonight in clear, plain sight. I’m not going to be waiting in the wings too much longer, especially if I continue to make my case with a win tonight. I’m not going to underestimate or overlook my opponent, I’ll say that much right now. Knowing what my opponents felt when I was a rookie, I know every single way to avoid the upset. Avoiding having that same attitude those folks felt about me is essentially the key to coming away with this win and I don’t know what is going on with DeSean. I don’t understand his radio silence. Maybe he was shaken up a little too much with his big debut loss, maybe he just doesn’t have the passion for this like many were hoping he would… I don’t know. I can only speculate, but when it’s all said and done, I have to take care of business tonight, period! I didn’t come to Convergence to lose and I didn’t come to Redemption Wrestling to be a failure. I came here to become a champion this company can be proud of and to take on and overcome all the tyrannical evil that wants to make this company all about them along the way. Obviously, DeSean isn’t the latter, but tonight, when I defeat him, I am definitely going to prove the former just a little bit more.
Sorry DeSean Walker… I don’t doubt that you’re a good guy and all, but at the end of the day, business is business. Nothing personal! But tonight, I step in that ring with you, I teach you what I can, I avoid overlooking you the way my opponents did to me when I was at your level of experience, and I continue to make my statement heard about the New Generation division. This match isn’t a headliner by any means, but I’m going to make the most of what I have as I continue to build my case for a New Generation championship opportunity. Tonight? I give you all something to be proud of while we wait and see how things turn out in that four way. Soon, I won’t be waiting in the wings, I’ll be soaring with them on my way to that New Generation Championship!
A confident Jazmyn stands up and smiles for a bit before she continues to walk in the park. Now fully prepared for Convergence on a psychological level, Jazmyn is driven to show Redemption and the world why she deserves her chance!
