Post by Kayla Richards on Jul 27, 2017 3:13:18 GMT -5
Guiding lie/light
Lost in the echo
I failed him.
The Dark Angel I had pledged myself too. It’s strange when you think you can feel nothing but then you’re hit with that realisation of regret. That pain of loss. I felt like I loved him, that I was also devoted to her. And even though I knew her secret. The evil within that she had betrayed him, she was getting ready to destroy everything he was I couldn’t bring myself to betray her trust even if it meant my dark angel was going to fail. He was going to be dragged kicking and screaming off his golden throne and thrown into the muck and mire of the common world.
I was torn.
I was conflicted.
I was human.
She was a piece of work that one. I had no real loyalty to her yet she had me convinced she was the true power and that she loved me and cared for me. Part of me wanted to expose her, to tell him about her deception but in the end it worked against me. I was the one put in an impossible position. I was told to destroy my sister. To go out to the ring and break her down inch by inch….
Don’t come back without her head on a pike and her heart on a platter….
His exact words.
In the end Amber beat me. I was young, arrogant and foolhardy in thinking I could charge at her in an animalistic rage and take her down. Amber was stronger, faster and much more experienced. Before I knew it I was face down and my ankle was screaming in pain. My hand pounded the mat and it was over. Failure. But they say every dark tunnel has light at the end of it if you walk far enough. Even for me it was right but unfortunately…
My light was a bigger lie than what I had been put through before….
And these promises broken
Deep, feeble
Each word gets lost in the echo
So one last lie I can see through
This time I finally let you
Go, go, go
4 Years Ago
Las Vegas Nevada.
Test my will, test my heart
“Get out of my sight….whore” His hand was wrapped around the leather collar, his knuckles pressed against my throat causing me to gag and sputter. He pulled forward and up almost lifting me off the ground. He looked in my eyes and saw the fear, the love, the desperation. I looked back in his eyes and saw disgust. With a small flick of his shoulders I was thrown backwards through the door into the hallway. He stepped out and looked down at me with a hiss in his voice. His followers, my family stood on with the same looks of disgust in their eyes.
“Worthless. Don’t come back” He slammed the door in my face and I stayed there, on the cold floor as people walked by. I couldn’t even hear their voices, see their faces. All I could see was that door. Closed and unmoving. I wanted to reach out and open it, I wanted to crawl back. I wanted to be owned by them all again. The sense of family was gone and I was alone again. But this time it was worse.
Not only did I no longer have family and love, I had lost purpose. My reason for existence. My whole body felt that numbness again. The feeling I had fought so hard to drop, to lose, to overcome. And then I heard her voice. It was the only thing that could cut through the pain. I looked up and the light above crowned her head like a golden halo as it mixed with her beautiful blonde hair.
Her soft pink lips, the deep blue eyes.
She was an angel standing above looking down at me. But unlike the others that stared filled with pity and disgust this was a look of concern and wonder. She found me intriguing. Her voice was soft, her eyes matched and she pulled me up to my feet. Her hand touched the leather collar and her sigh seemed to have an anger behind it as if she had known what it was to be property. I let her take it off, I let her drop it to the floor and she walked away with me. She was the light….but her lies were greater than the rest...more painful….
And my lessons were not done…..
