Post by Kayla Richards on May 24, 2017 21:54:34 GMT -5
14 Months ago
“No…” I tilted my head with a little grin, not sure if I quite heard Amber’s obnoxious objection. I smiled wider and let out a small noise as if to question. Amber with her arms folded looking every piece the angry mother figure stepped forward. “No Kayla…I mean it…”
I smiled and leaned back against the wall twirling a piece of hair between my fingers. “Whatever do you mean dear sister?. What is it you are telling me no too?” Amber’s eyes narrow and she lets out an audible grunt. “Don’t play dumb or coy. I know you slipped Jace your phone number….”
“Me?. Why would I do such a thing?...” “KAYLA!” I knew she wasn’t in a playful mood, I let out a sigh and sat down crossing my legs over and folding my arms. “So I gave him my number and we’ve been talking. Where’s the harm in that?...” Amber shakes her head looking disappointed. She steps closer and sits next to me squeezing my hand.
“Kay, he’s Renee’s cousin, and I know what their culture is like but for us it’s a little too…close…” I raise an eyebrow and smirk “Close how?” Amber tilts her head and gives me the “really?” eyes.
“He’s family, that’s a little sick…” I scoff and roll my eyes. “Not as sick as leaving someone you love for someone you thought was your brother….” Amber shakes her head again and squeezes my hand. “Don’t you think it’s time to let that go?” I turn and give her a nod and laugh to myself “I have…”
“Right…and that’s why you felt the need to make that little comment.”
I stayed silent, my mind burning with anger that she could be right, I may not be over Eliza and what happened. I may not have that closure. And I’m not sure I will ever get it. “There’s only two ways you’ll ever find peace Kay, either forgive Eliza right now and move on, or go see her, tell her how you feel, yell, scream, punch her in the face….” I swallowed hard, the thought of violence had occurred to me.
“Although they frown on that kind of thing in hospitals.”
I laughed again, this time a little louder. My mind flashed to Eliza laying in the hospital bed. I had tried to see her but as I approached the door I heard Austins voice talking to her. Professing his love, his devotion. And I knew I wasn’t needed…or wanted.
“Maybe when she wakes up Amber. But not now. Maybe I do just need to forgive her….to let it go…” Amber kissed me on the cheek and smiled “I’m proud of you..” I gave her a nod but said nothing. “Now…Jace is waiting outside….If I’m in bed when you get back be quiet when you come in…” I smiled and laughed “Sure thing….old woman….”
2 hours Later
“Are ya ok?” I looked up and smiled at Jace with a nod. He smiled back at me with an innocence I found sweet and admired, but I was still nervous around him. His hair was hidden under a black beanie but flowed from under it down his shoulders. It was a dark brown, the same as his beard that stretched from his sideburns down his jawline to his chin.
He looked side to side and I wondered why. Then I realized, I’d been staring for this entire time. “Oh, yeah fine, sorry…” He swallowed hard and looked away again and then down at his burger. “Ah didnae think ah was borin ya, considerin how we text.”
My heart sank, I stuttered, I stammered, I reached forward and then back knocking over my drink but just catching it as some spilled to the floor. “No that’s not it at all, sorry you just distracted me.”
“How?”
He looked at me confused, oh he really is naïve. How cute. My nerves melted away as I smiled at him and noticed his cheeks flush red. Despite how close we are in age I realize now that I..for once, am the more experienced. I bite my bottom lip like I’d seen Amber do a million times to get Renee to melt. Jace swallowed his bite of burger and fidgeted, his huge tattooed arms visible from his black singlet, his leather jacket hung off the back of the chair as he struggled to keep his 6’7 frame on it.
He shuffled a little and almost fell. I couldn’t help but laugh. “You ok there?” He gave me a nod and my hand caught his. “This is stupid.” His face turned white as I quickly readjusted my words. “No not this, just, I’m 21 years old, you’re 20, we’re basically grown adults and we talk all the time on our phones why are we sitting here like idiots in a burger place exchanging awkward glances?...”
Jace sat there for a moment and stared out the window, “Well darlin’, Iah’d say it’s cause of tha deep sexual and physical chemistry…”
I raised my eyebrows and we both burst out with laughter. “Alright smart ass….the ice is broken…” I put my napkin on my plate as Jace finished his burger, I stood up and put my hoodie on, turning back to say something to him but instead my lips met his as his hulking frame bent down to kiss me, after a few moments he pulled back and I awkwardly coughed.
“Ah…sorry…ah just…”
“Shut the fuck up…..”
I grabbed him from behind his neck pulling him into another kiss and as happy as I felt I also had this one lingering, nagging, annoying thought float through the back of my head stopping me from fully enjoying the experience….
Renee is going to be soooo pissssed
